Don’t get me wrong, I am so incredibly blessed to be doing World Race Semesters. However, this journey is a true test of my patience. Everything from getting a passport, fundraising, getting vaccinations, being a full time student, trying to find a job, getting an apartment, making time for my relationship, focusing on being a social college student, and most importantly keeping my relationship with God as strong as it was the day I was accepted into the World Race Semesters. This is such an exciting season of my life, but it’s stressful. Some days, I want to give up, I begin to ask myself if everything I want is worth the struggles. I also put so much pressure on myself to be PERFECT. Having the perfect grades, having money, being the best friend/girlfriend possible, the perfect body, the perfect mindset. It’s too much pressure on myself. I have trouble remembering that being a Christian is not about being perfect. I can’t be perfect, no matter how badly I want to be. While God is perfect and Christians are expected to be God like, God is also aware that we will never be him, he is forgiving and good. In this season, I have to remind myself of that constantly.
Everything that I am experiencing right now is all part of the plan. God has put me through things before now to prepare me for what I am going through, he is also putting me through this now so I will be better armored in the future for bigger and potentially more rewarding obstacles. I can’t wait to be in Swaziland this summer showing the people the work of God, in all that he has done for me, and all he will do for them.
So friends, I ask you to pray for me and for yourselves, presence and patience. But even more important than that, presence over perfection.
