Today is one of those days on the race when you wake up, and realize that you aren’t going to leave your room because your body has decided to cleanse itself of the street food that you have been consuming and it wouldn’t be safe to be more than five feet away from the bathroom at any given time. With that said I have spent a lot of time in bed this morning thinking.
Yesterday at church, I noticed on the screen that is said, “Welcome to Pana Worship, no perfect people allowed.” So I have been thinking about churches, and why people aren’t honest in their struggles with each other. I was wondering why we live under some social pressure to have to have our lives all together.
So I have spent my morning asking “Why can’t we as Christians be real with each other?”
And the answer I came to is because we don’t know who we are in Christ.
When we truly know our identity in Christ, we don’t have to pretend like our life is all together because we know that we are nothing in of ourselves, but through the blood of Jesus we are new creations.
Back in the Philippines, I read in a book that I randomly picked off a self that said the best kept secret among Christians today is that “Jesus paid it all.” I have been thinking about this for three months now, and I think there is truth to that sentence.
I have noticed that we in our own efforts try to prove that we are following Christ, but we forget that it wasn’t our own efforts that brought us into relationship with the father in the first place. We hide from each other because we don’t want others to know that we are failing at being good people. But when I stop trying to find my identity in being a good christian, and I find my identity in being a son/ daughter of the king it doesn’t matter if I am struggling.
So I was really thinking, that I want to be the kind of person that other people can be real with. I want to be the type of person who’s friendship can create a place for someone to be vulnerable. We need to be vulnerable with each other. We need to be able to let our guard down, so that we can let the Father into the deep corners of our life. We walk around as broken people, who instead of being vulnerable, letting the lies out, and coming to terms who we really are in truth, walk around pretending to be all together.
Why do we pretend to be all together? Jesus has done so much for us, why can’t we put our pride aside, and actually let ourselves be put together.
Sometimes we need to have days like my body is having today. We need to let all the junk out that is inside of us even if it is painful and ugly, so that we can walk around like healthy people.
