It’s crazy to look back on life and see how incredibly awesome the Lord is. I bet if you look back on your past, things happen in ways you hadn’t expected them to. Then there were things that happened in the one and only God’s timing and way.
When I begin to walk in the unknown I somehow lose focus of the leader, and begin to think I know what I need and the perfect timing for it all. Well folks, I hate to tell you this but I continually get it wrong. I literally don’t know what’s right for me and my growth in the Lord.
It will come at no surprise to any of you (hehe you’re on my blog), that I just returned from living abroad in 11 countries and serving the local communities in each place. When I agreed to live this life I also agreed to raising $16,561 to cover the expenses for the year.
I jumped right into fundraising and I was totally like “before I leave I will be 100% funded, because Jesus loves me”. Spoiler that didn’t happen. Infact, I didn’t even make the goal needed to leave. But for some reason I was given the green light to leave (WHAT?) with the understanding that if I didn’t meet the goals I would be taken off the field. What a gift that was. I knew each day I was on the field could be my last. If I was to go home tomorrow could I say I gave my all to the people I met? I began to live each day as if it was my last.
Wow, the Lord is good and He showed me what it meant to live my life to the fullest each day. People, we don’t know when it will be our last day on this earth or when the person sitting next to us will take their last breath. Since we don’t know, why aren’t we living 100% sold out for God? Just something to think about.
One day during my quiet time, I had this vision of a little girl being led through the woods by a manly figure. The two came to a stream, but since the little girl had ruffled socks and white Mary jane shoes on, the manly figure picked her up and carried her across the stream.
This vision I believe was a sign that the Lord would continue to carry me through the rough waters, back to safety. Nearly 3 months later I found myself being baptized into a waterfall (rough water for reals). My mind cannot stop replaying that vision and the day in the Zambezi river and how the Lord not only saved my life years ago, but that He continues to carry me through the rough waters of life.
Guys, I prayed months and months about 1 thing, and that was to be fully funded ASAP. I believed that if I was fully funded I would be able to serve the people and my team better. Again, thankfully the Lord knows best. Because I was not fully funded, I was able to walk into a season of TRUST, I got to trust that the Lord would not only make a way for me to remain on the field, but that the funds would come. Since I wasn’t fully funded I got to grow in ways that I would have never grown had the funds been there the whole time.
I’ve been home for 2 months and the amount I owed upon returning was over $2,000. I’ve been so blessed to receive a few donations and also an amazing job with which I was able to start repaying what remained.
Friends this is where my heart stops and I fall to my knees, because someone paid off the remainder for the amount I owed. (insert crying). Guys, my debt has only again been covered. How faithful of the Lord. He continues to blow me away!!!!!!
So Guys with no further ado, I’m ecstatic to share with you all that I’m Fully Funded!!!
Jesus always has your best interest in mind, it may not seem like that in the moment but in the future you will look back and see all that you learned during that time.
