In the last two months all of my family and friends have showed me how much they all love and support me. I have been wildly successful in my fundraising. However, I started fundraising a little late in the race. So as of right now I am at $3,500 in my fundraising! In 8 days I leave for training camp, but I cannot go unless I meet my $5,000 goal. So week after week I have dragged my family and friends to fundraising events and tournaments. I know they must be tired and broke like I am from all this fundraising and faith. But I know that my god will provide me with what I need.
My only problem is that I have been selling myself short for the last 24 hours. Because my last fundraiser only brought in $1,700 I have felt like a failure because it did not meet the $5,000 goal. So now I can’t go to training camp and all of the time and money I invested is just simply wasted. But there is my problem right there! I still have 8 days for God to move, but in my heart I am already calling it quits.
In the last 2 months I have found that God often waits till the last moment before he works a miracle. At least that has been my experience. When we were on the waiting list to be a vendor at a local craft fair, the lady in charge waited until 20 minutes before the fair started to give us a booth. My sister and I were sitting in a car filled with bread and cookies that we didn’t even know if we were going to be able to sell. But in the last 20 minutes God came through for me and we made $600 that day! So why does it surprise me that a week before training camp I haven’t met my goal?
This has been the hardest most faith filled two months of my life. I’d like to say it was easy and everything was all sparkles and butterflies, but I can’t. It’s so hard believing God for something so big that you’re scared to tell you family and friends because you’re afraid they might call you crazy! I am crazy! I believe that in less than 6 months my God will provide me with $17,400 for my World Race! I have those nights that as I fall asleep all I can think about is how I will make it to my next goal? How can I do it? How am I going to figure this out? STOP! There is my problem. I keep relying on myself instead of the one who is sending me on this trip in the first place.
In these next 8 days I believe I will see more of a miracle than I have seen these last 2 months. I believe that whatever happens, God is the one who I am relying on and not myself. I believe that He who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us will show me his will and provide what I need. I cannot tell you how crazy I feel to believe this, but I hope that my crazy faith will grow more and more over this next year. I know it will and I can’t wait!
