I’m in my office a bit after-hours this evening. This will probably be the trend for the next week and a half – one of my favorite times of the year. I’m twisting brown packaging paper into vines, blowing up balloons, and mimicking the cute kids on the music videos as I try to catch the worship motions for the 22nd time. Wanna know why? It’s VBS season! Next week we will have 150 kiddos running around our self-made jungle and learning about the character of God and His heart for the world. I. Can’t. Wait.
But (there is always a “but”), I’ve had some moments this month where this excited feeling was not consistent. It’s like I’ve wired an On/Off switch to the different arenas of my life. When training camp dates came out I flipped my WR switch on and off went the VBS switch. When my supply list kept growing for VBS and I felt a little stress, off went the WR switch and on went the VBS switch. This happens in other relationships, too. When I’m with my best friend and her little boy, I choose to turn the WR switch off. It’s easier. I don’t have to deal with the fact that I won’t be here when he turns 3. When I hear about needs around the world my WR switch turns on and I feel frustrated that I am where I am right now.
I’m wary that if I continue to flip the switches on and off and on and off again that I might blow some kind of emotional breaker. I don’t think that this is how God wired me. We are created with desires and gifts and emotions that are meant to serve as one. Like chapters in a book or the ingredients in my latte, these parts are good on their own, but are way better together. I want to allow the different currents my life to flow together. I know it might get messy and I might end up slightly electrocuted. I’m ok with that (my hair is frizzy most of the time anyway). I want to express my broken heart for the needs of the world to my kiddos at VBS. I want to pray for my best friend and her little son while I am sleeping in a tent in Cambodia. I want to use the skills I’ve learned organizing a volunteer team to help encourage my team on the Race. God knows what He is doing and has put me in the season that I’m in as part of my journey. Not a lesser part, an equal part – to love Him and love those around me. No need for On/Off switches there.
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