Exactly two months ago…
..I woke up, got before the Lord, and knew that today more than any day He had already gone before me.
…I started the car, a sang loud and prayed louder that He was so good for going before me.
…I got to my destination, sat down for a 20 minute meeting, trusting that He was going to work this out for me. Because, He had already gone before me.
..I was silent for 20 minutes as the other person talked, not knowing that the “He had gone before me” was translating also into “my ways are not your ways.”
On August 5th, a day after I wrote my last blog “Days Without Kenya”, I had no idea that the decision was going to be made that I would not be joining the team, my family, in Kenya. (I wrote about the process on the Kenya Initiative Blog, read here.)
Today, exactly 2 months later, I sit in my house in San Diego reflecting the process and the journey. To be honest it has been a hard road. There have been times when I felt like all odds were against me except the Lord. I have had to surrender to myself, my wants, and my rights every single day. I had to just know, that God saw all things and knew my heart more than even I did. I have had to acknowledge that no one is perfect and that only God has the jurisdiction and power to make life decisions. So, because of my acknowledgment of that, I know that I am sitting in my house today in San Diego because God has already gone before me. 
He’s gone before me in times that I’ve fought. He’s gone before me in times of my suffering. He’s gone before me in times that I can’t stop rejoicing. HE HAS gone before me.
Today, exactly two months later and what seems like a broken dream behind me, I can say God’s goodness is too good. His love is too overwhelming. His joy each day is overflowing. His faithfulness to me in unending. His grace over my life is undeserving….
… He is a good God.
I love you all so much. Thanks for all your prayers and support in this process. It has not been the easiest one, that’s for sure. I will be posting soon about what’s next for me! It has been a great run with Adventures in Missions and I am looking forward to what is next.
