“The Irrevocable Calling…“
In my mini Bio, I briefly touched on the subject of how I was called to the Mission Field. However, we were asked to write a blog about how we were called to this mission trip. So, here is my story…
I remember, in my sixth grade English class, I was assigned to write a paper of what I wanted to be when I grew up. I passionately wrote a three page story of me being a missionary in Africa. That soon became a childhood dream as I grew more in the world everyday. I still went on little mission trips and supported two children with World Vision Org. but I knew that was not fulfilling the call that the Lord had on my life.
In summer of ’07, I made up my mind that I would do whatever it took to get to the mission field. I needed to stop waiting for that ‘someday’ to roll around and take action. So I decided to give up everything including my apartment, all my furnishings, my secure job, and even my little doggie that I had bought for myself for Christmas two years previously. I cleared myself from all contracts and made myself completely free from any ties that would obligate me to stay here in America. Sadly, I made myself a nomad. My intentions were understandable but the reality was rough; taking everyday a day at a time. I lived out of a suitcase and sofa-surfed. I continued to praise the Lord and pray for an open door to His appointed place to come quickly. But I missed my life that I had given up; coming home to my own nice furnished apartment with my little dog to greet me ecstatically. My life was comfortable and secure, and now I was unsure that I had made a responsible decision. I felt foolish but I took Jesus’ words literality when He said to leave everything, take up your cross and follow Him, and go out doing the Great Commission. That was reality in my eyes; not sitting in an office cubical day after day.
While I continued to pray for the Lord’s direction, it was only a few weeks later when the Lord gave me the opportunity to service Him in Guatemala. Praise the Lord! I ministered and served in Guatemala for the few months that I was scheduled for over the summer of ’08 and then came back to my nomadic life here in the states feeling completely out of place. I started to look towards ways that I could service as a missionary for a longer period of time. I thought about staying with some friends that pastor a church in Mexico, or joining the Peace Corp, even running off the India, solo!
