24 days! That's how long I've been home from Training Camp and I could say I've been processing that whole time. (I've taken a couple days off to just rest.) 🙂
Wow! Let's start there! When planning for Training Camp, I asked friends to pray for me because I knew I would be broken and wrecked through out the week. That was true! 🙂
The Lord ravaged my image of Christ and my Heavenly Father.
Father…let's start there…that was my biggest challenge…I am the daughter of a Man who abandoned myself, my sister and my mother. My image of a "Father" was wrecked. I have been left with hurts that are still sore from being ripped open way too often. I imagine a "Father" to be a man who doesn't have my best interest at hand. Who has his own agenda. Who is only out to get what he wants. Who doesn't care. Who will abandon me. Who will leave me broken. Who chooses others over me. Who has left me feeling unloved, unwanted, unneeded and unworthy.
I put my God, My Heavenly Father, in the same category and held him at a far distance not letting him in.
That is a Lie!!! My Father, My Daddy, My Papa lavished me with his Love over and over again that week at Training Camp! He still is as well!
I was told over and over and over again (5 times actually) by my Heavenly Father that I am LOVED. I have PURPOSE. I am a DAUGHTER of a High King. I am BEAUTIFUL. I am FORGIVEN. I have a TRUE FATHER in GOD. He isn't only the LORD of my Life but he is MY FATHER. He has my best interest at hand. He LOVES me.
I share this with tears rolling down my face. I want to convey that my Father God, Loves you the same. He wants the best for you, He Loves you, He is better then you think he is. He LOVES you better then the Father who abandoned you. He's better then the person who has spoken lies over you. You are a Daughter/Son of a Great King. He LOVES you and calls you his own.
I leave in 16 days (WOW!) excited to not only to live these truths out but to be able to share them. Not everyone has been abandoned by a parent, but I know we've been lied to. I want to be able to convey the truths that I know to be true in Christ. Excited to serve.
1 John 4: 9-12 "In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.No one has ever seen God; if we love one another, God abides in us and his love is perfect in us"
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