This is what I know.

a country filled with beauty. color. diversity. and some serious heat !

A land also blanketed with much darkness, confusion and shame.

 

The people here walk in confusion and live in much shame. Walk the streets – you can see it in their eyes. You can feel  it.

 

Ask a guy standing on the side of the road for directions to the market – he’ll send you in a direction somewhere. Most likely not  the right direction. But you can’t get upset or frustrated. That’s defalt here. It’s a protection from shame – it’s a save from the assuption that you might think something less of him because he doesn’t know. 

 

 I get that. I’m not Asain. I’m not of Cambodian desent. I haven’t grown up in this culture. But what I do know – fear and shame are one of the most deady cages around. I’ve lived under it. Well, actually, I’ve almost died under it. 

 

Only because of Jesus do I live differently today . Only because of Jesus, do I walk in confidence of who I am and what He says about me. Only because of Jesus, am I perfectly okay to not be okay , to be REAL, and to walk out life in a contant state of learning and growing.

 

And because of Jesus alone, there are things He has promised and that without a doubt I KNOW and believe with all my heart ~

 

 This is what I know ::

 

* Jesus is never going to leave me.

* I am held in My Father’s arms, and only there am I completely safe.

* Because God is FOR me, NO one and NOTHING can stand against.
* He has given me a heart to love others and to see people in MY generation come alive. Like, not just live, but be ALIVE, like crazy people – all for HIS fame.

* Houses, hostels, stairwells, door frames and other such structures in Cambodia are not made to safely welcome 6′ humans. Just sayin’.

* I have the freedom to be me. To express myself and my love for God freely and without fear or comparrison to anyone.

* I have one hella teamleader for the next 4 months.

(He’s got Jesus IN Him and pouring OUT of him. That’s one incredible testimony.)

* Community is one of the most refining and growing things ever.

* Elizabeth is a MAJOR work in progress.

* I have a forever, guarnteed promised job – further the Kindom of God till the day I die. Trust me, It’ll keep you busy, 24/7/365.

* God’s grace is what I need every day.

* The wreckless love of God – I will never, ever understand. That’s okay. I just want to live and share that crazy love with my life.

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* Because God  is GOOD. Because He is FAITHFUL. Because I am LOVED. Because of the incredible working of the Body Of Christ…… (you ready for this…?!)

 

 

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Oh wait, I’m actually, I’m over funded by $90 dollars!

 

 (*mental thoughts* : no way. shut up! that can’t be right. is this in real life? okay, fine…freak OUT!)

 

thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you. thank you.

 

I can’t get over it. Like, over 95% of you rockstar supporters don’t even know me! We’ve never talked! You don’t know my story. But that’s what a common ground, and a shared heartbeat does, huh?

You are apart of this journey. You are apart of every story to be written here on these blog pages.

 

And becuase of Jesus, I am here today – alive, in love, confident, unashamed, growing,  and…
 FULLY FUNDED!