Was the excuse I told myself of this month. well I don’t care too much about this month’s ministry, it's not peeking my interest too much, it's redundant, and I’m only going to be here a month anyway then I’ll be gone. I’m not in charge of keeping this ministry going so I’m just going to do the bare minimum. Dumb! Big mistake. I’m embarrassed to admit it but I slacked off this month (obviously with the previous statement) with ministry and with my personal time with the Lord. I definitely stopped or at least slowed the progress me and God were making. I got lazy, selfish, and just decided to throw a temper tantrum (in my head at least) because I wanted to be doing something different and the fact that the weather was not to my liking didn’t help either. My peeps back home know I don’t do cold well. I regret not being really present but I also realized AGAIN how vital MY time with the Lord is. He gives me my strength. He gives me my energy. He gives me my endurance. He gives me a better attitude and a better perspective on the situations I’m in. He ALWAYS brings me back to center. I ignored my alone time with Him in the beginning of the month because I felt that all day I was praying anyway so I was getting tired blah blah blah. That came back to bite me in the…..butt. I let that negativity set the tone for my month and instead of bringing something new to the ministry, that was encouraged and welcomed mind you, I didn’t contribute too much I think. I was checking out before the month was over but my team saw how we as a team were checking out a bit and brought us back to reality, to the joy and goodness that God has been giving us this month here and the joy we should be shelling out here to the people. Of course it’s all in retrospect (it always is) but it’s never too late to give yourself a second chance and Thank the Lord that He allows second chances. So I’m expecting great things these next few days that we have left here in Transylvania with the people and with my team, and me and Him are getting back on track
Don’t let the weather or the crappy situation that you’re in get in between you and God, the deepening of your friendship, and the clouding of His greatness around you. Always expect great things from Him.
