Sometimes we ask for things of The Lord when we really don’t know we are asking for them, and sometimes He answers us. This happened to me one night at an impromptu worship time we had as a squad.
We were singing a song together that says, “ I want to know how high, how deep, how wide is your love, love, love.” While I was singing these words, I was passionate about them. They were a cry to The Lord, but I didn’t recognize that they were a prayer I have had for a long time. The prayer that I will begin to see other’s through the eyes of Christ and that I would know His love for them. I didn’t grasp the fact that I was not merely singing a worship song; I was actually praying something that my heart previously desired.
The Lord answered my prayer in a very powerful and overwhelming way.
During our singing, a chair was placed at the front of the room where we could stand and release what God was placing in our hearts. I didn’t feel as if I had anything to release… that is until other people began to share their struggles and realizations. My fellow squad mates began to declare the truth God has for them.
I suddenly saw everyone in the room through different eyes and I began to weep for them. I felt so much love for my friends and my little heart simply could not bear it. I am not talking about your average empathy here. I am naturally empathetic and I know what that feels like, but this was definitely something supernatural. These feelings of love can only be described as a gift of The Holy Spirit. I was able to see people at about 0.0001 percent of how God sees them, and it brought me into an absolute explosion of love. I was bawling uncontrollably and I felt like my heart would come bursting out of my chest. I really didn’t know how to handle it, and I am still processing through what this means for me in my walk with Christ. It was not something that took time to develop. It was instant and downright consuming. The best part about it all was that through this gift of love, I was also able to speak God’s life into other people. The words started flowing out of my mouth.
Since this night, I still see people and situations through a different filter than I had before. I am able to catch a glimpse of how God sees His children and how He loves us unconditionally. People actually look different to me. I know that I was given this as a gift because it was not a one-time thing, and it has been engraved in my spirit. I still mess up, because I was only given a fraction of the love. I do not live in His perfection, only in His grace. If He had given me the ability to experience the love that He has for us in its fullness, then I probably wouldn’t be able to write this blog because my brain and my heart would have simultaneously exploded. This is why we are the children and He is our Lord. Because He is the only one that can love truly and without flaw. He is so amazing and I am simply in awe of what He has done in my life.
I once received a fortune that said, “ sometimes traveling to a new place leads to great transformation.” I think my fortune just came true. I’m calling it The Great Love Explosion of 2013.
