What is keeping your words from being genuine?
My heart seeks two different kingdoms. My spirit wants the kingdom of heaven to come, while my flesh still operates in the ways of the world; my pride and selfish ambition hum beneath my desire for Heaven to be brought to Earth.
My words — even more my prayers — are both accurate and eloquent, yet my heart and my mind are at war; my soul is divided.
I abide in my Father, and his words abide in me. The kingdom of my heart — of heaven — is conquering the kingdom of my mind.
For, “When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own palace, his goods are safe; but when one stronger than he attacks him and overcomes him, he takes away his armor in which he trusted and divides his spoil. Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me scatters“ (1).
Before, I was very much FOR Jesus, and the kingdom he described. Now, I am becoming WITH Jesus in bringing the kingdom he described.
What has kept your words from being genuine?
May I live a life walking in complete confidence of the identity I have been given within the kingdom, only doing what I see my Father doing, and saying what I hear my Father telling me.
There is no striving in the kingdom.
No longer must I do anything of my own accord; my Father provides for me everything I need.
I see fear running for the hills. When I walk in security, I make the enemy feel insecure. I do not have to say anything that is outside of my Fathers will. Nobody, but God, will be saying “Well done, good & faithful servant” (2), at the end of my walk through the valley of shadow. I need — no I am called — to stop making what others say to me and about me the idol that governs the way I walk. My Righteousness and my Shepherd will do that.
Sure, I am a sheep amongst wolves. But the shepherd whom I follow is greater than David.
1 The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters.
3 He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his names sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
(3)
Why are your words not genuine?
-Elijah
(1) – Luke 11:21-23
(2) – Luke 19:17, Matthew 25:21
(3) – Psalm 23
