Month five was by far the hardest month for me. I had a team change for the first time on the race and lets just say it was one of the hardest things I had to go through on the race thus far. I went into the month with a different attitude, all I was thinking was that I had to start over. I had to retell my story, get to know their stories, and what there personality quirks were. I was going to be uncomfortable for awhile. And that in itself was the reason why the race does team changes. People get comfortable and are not challenged or motivated enough to grow. It was an inevitable change.
I was in a funk, well most of my new team was; which did not fare well for the month. Don’t get me wrong, we worked hard and did our ministry work everyday, but when it came to team time it was awkward. Little by little we started to get to know each other. We tested the boundaries and were now able to work and live around each other. Our jokes were no longer falling to the ground with a loud echo afterwards, we were a team.
Team time came along one night and we went around and talked about what we were going through. My turn came and I was a bit flustered, “Ive been praying and reading my word and I’ve gotten nothing. Its like the Lord’s not around and it sucks. He’s always spoken to me through His word, but He hasn’t this whole month.” Once I said out loud what I was feeling, it clicked. With my palm to my forehead I interrupted my other teammates turn to speak, “Oh my gosh, I prayed and asked the Lord to speak and show Himself to me in new ways, and I have only been searching for Him in His word. He’s probably been flashing signs to me in neon but I wasn’t looking for them.” And to make things even more clearer to me that night the Lord lead me to John 5:39-40:
“You have your heads in your Bibles constantly because you think you’ll find eternal life there. But you miss the forest for the trees. These Scriptures are all about me! And here I am, standing right before you…”
The Lord is so good and actually listens when you ask for more growth. (Who’da thought?) He’s been waiting for us to ask those things of Him, and He’s eager and willing to give them to us.
With a red forehead I advise you to not forget it cause he’ll remind you.
