I would never WANT to say that I am a lazy person becuase that brings on the notion that I am unmotivated or directionless. In my own defense I could list many things that took hard work that I not only started but finished…or at least attempted to. As we all know though nothing we do means much of anythign unless it is given our very best effort and energy. This is so true for myself especially in where I am right now. Heres the pattern; I get an idea, I jump into starting something, I get complacent, I get scared (anxious/nervous..any of those will do)…and although I may stay involved in whatever it is and or finish my task I leave with a feeling that i could have done more, or that I could have gave more. Part of feeling scared is the fear of the oucome not being what I wanted or disapointing. How crazy is that though becuase if I don't try anyway then how will I ever know what the outcome could have been? In relaity the word lazy would be a fitting adjective. I know great things are possible but a lack of motivation cuased by fear makes it hard to push through and suceed. I only focus on this in the hope that this reflection allows for change. Without jumping full force into this whole journey and process I am only going to be missing out, I can't be afraid of fully commiting. And how much more exciting and fulfilling anything I do will be if I give it all the effort and time I can.
