Google defines purpose as “the reason for which something is created or for which something exists”. I have been trying to figure out my purpose or the reason why I was created and placed here ever since we landed in China. This month we are doing an open ministry month. We have no connections in this city and are relying 100% on prayer and hearing from God. At first it sounds great but when it started it was not as easy as I thought.
Every morning we spend an hour in prayer just asking God what he has for us during that day since we have absolutely no plans. If I’m being honest, I don’t normally hear anything, which is perfectly ok. I know he is still with me even if he doesn’t say anything. After our prayer we go into town. Sometimes we walk around the neighborhoods praying over everyone living there. Other times, God brings people to us and we get to love on them. Occasionally we even get to invite them to our home and fix them dinner. This country also really restricts what we are able to do. It is against the law to share our faith with any non believers. With that being said we do a lot of praying. Talking to our father and praying is all so powerful. Just a lot of time you don’t get to see the fruit from your prayers which is hard for me here. I mean, I traveled halfway across the world to do God’s work. I like to be doing hands on stuff and seeing immediate results. Sometimes that’s just not what a city needs. Just like in Joshua 6, the Israelites just marched around the walls of Jericho for six days and were told to keep their voices down until the time was right. On the seventh day, when the time was right, the trumpets sounded, all the men shouted, and the walls came down. That’s how I feel right now. I know revival is coming for this city and its people but until the time is right, I’m going to keep marching and praying.
Back to my original question, “What is my purpose?” I know that while I am here, I am supposed to continue to pray for these people and show them the love of our father. Once I leave here, I don’t know. One day during this next 11 months God might tell me to stay in one country and serving those people is what I was created to do. Another possibility is I might just have to continue to pray into it, and I might have a new purpose every week. I am perfectly ok with either one. That’s the best part about this walk with the Father. You don’t need to know it all or worry about a thing because he’s got you.
I guess to answer the question of “What is my purpose?” I don’t know yet.
