As we were making our way to the village of OMA to do ministry with the kids, I asked the Lord for him to break my heart for what breaks his. To be quite honest, I was scared to ask that because in my Mind, I associate that with the Lord is going to allow something bad to happen to me and it is going to hurt. However, I knew this needed to happen so I was willing to pray it expectantly.
Entering into the village I was so excited to see my buddy Moses and also partake in the cultural celebration that was going to happen. My team and I were making our way to Moses house to get him, and as we were waiting, our host heather told us more of his story. in the village where these people live, it is quite common for the men to leave the women and let them tend to raising the children and not really coming back. This was the case with Moses. His mom has multiple children and his dad is not around. I also learned that in this culture, children with disabilities are seen as a curse and so the families basically have nothing to do with them. To his mom, Moses is a reminder of what she did not want so she shuns him.
Upon hearing this, my heart broke. Why would anyone act like that towards their child? This young boy has one of the biggest hearts and loves so deeply and protects and looks after all the other kids above himself. All I wanted to do from that point on was just be with this kid and want so much to get him out of the life situation he was in, and just love him.
After getting Moses we made our way to the village school, where the cultural celebration was taking place. After paying 50cents to get in we made our way to this area where food was being cooked, and it looked like something straight out of a youtube video I seen with all the big cooking materials and open fire they where using. We ordered our food which was amazing, Their fried Pan or bread tasted like a funnel cake without powdered sugar. While we were eating another teammate noticed a little boy standing by us, looking so heart broken and sad. It was evident that this child was hungry and didn’t have the means to eat food. The adults around us just saw and did nothing to fix that. They did not offer to buy food for him and they just kind of overlooked him. thankfully, our host was able to feed him but, it just hit me so hard in my chest: here I was enjoying some bread with Moses and this kid was going without. I did not even want to continue eating at that point.
All I kept asking myself as I was there, was Why do these adults not care? our host was explaining to us in this culture, children are not really seen as priority because of all the stresses of life and them needing to survive, by making money, So instead the children take care of each other and last night was very evident of that. Children ages 5 and 6 years old were caring for babies. it just really did something to my heart and made me feel even more for these Kids.
Though this was hard, the Lord showed me the beauty of been seen and taken care of. He also continued to remind me how faithful he is and how he provides. These kids only have each other and they are so close and trusting of each other that it is amazing. It is really neat to think How close you can be with Christ when he is the only one and thing that you have.
GUYS THE Lord desires a deep connection with us so much that he may allow us to be in circumstances that may require us to only have him and its beautiful. Though I want so bad to remove my buddy from what he experiences, I know that the Lord is showing him rich things of himself through it. Its hard but God is showing me so much through this and I encourage yall to let him speak to your life as well through this. What hard circumstance is the Lord allowing you to be in so you can see the beauty of him? I know for me its a place of abandonment of everything I have known and the people I have known, so I can be in place where it is me and him.
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