To little boy still struggling,
Struggling with doubt,
Acceptance, love, same sex attraction,
Confusion.
This one’s for you!!!
Before you were conceived,
You were thought of.
Before you were born
All the days of your life
Were planned out.
You were designed with care,
Love, and intention.
As a child, you were
Always noticed by someone.
Even though you did not know.
Your heart was laid bare
Before the one who created you.
He saw you in your hurt.
He saw you when you felt
Lonely.
He was with you every step
of the way.
He saw you when you
Were loosing yourself
By trying to conform and be
The person everyone else wanted
You to be, all to be accepted,
To fit in, to have friends.
He sees the battle you’re
Going through with dame sex attraction
And how it makes you feel.
He sees how much it hurts you.
He sees how you have to make sure
That HE desires you to disciple someone
And that it is not same sex attraction
In disguise.
He sees how much you want that
To go away so you could be “normal”
And disciple others without having to worry
About that attraction trying to use discipleship
As a means to get close to people.
He sees your heart and how you feel
Alone.
Ignored.
He knows your thoughts
And how they over analyze every interaction
To make sure that what was said,
Was genuine and that the person who said
It truly cares and means it.
Or if they meant something else that is against you.
He also sees your heart and how you
Desire people to remain in your life for
The long run.
He sees you, and that when you
Truly care for someone you give ALL
Of yourself to their well being
And neglect your own hurt.
He sees you
He has something to
Tell you.
So get ready
Because this one,
This one is for you…
CHILD, YOU ARE NOT ALONE,
NEVER WILL I LEAVE YOU
NEVER WILL I FORSAKE YOU.
I AM NEAR THE BROKEN HEARTED
PUTTING ALL OF YOUR DEPENDENCY
AND TRUST IN PEOPLE WILL HURT YOU.
PLACE YOUR TRUST IN ME,
FOR I AM LOVE
AND LOVE NEVER FAILS.
GIVE ME YOUR ALL
I WILL NOT LET YOU DOWN.
I SEE YOU, I NOTICE YOU
CALL TO ME AND I
WILL ANSWER
AND SHOW YOU GREAT
AND MIGHTY THINGS
THAT YOU DO NOT KNOW.
I AM YOUR TREASURE.
DELIGHT IN ME AND
I WILL GIVE YOU THE
DESIRES OF YOUR HEART.
I AM THE GIVER OF GOOD
AND PLEASING GIFTS,
I AM NOT AN INDIAN GIVER
I DO NOT LIE, NOR CHANGE LIKE SHIFTING SHADOWS.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH,
THAT WHILE YOU WERE
FAR FROM ME,
MY ENEMY…
STILL A SINNER…
I GAVE MY LIFE TO HAVE YOU.
YES,
CHILD
I HAVE CHOSEN YOU.
I WANT YOU!!!
THE GOOD WORK I STARTED
IN YOU, I WILL SEE IT
THROUGH TILL THE DAY
OF COMPLETION.
I AM FAITHFUL AND MY WORD
THAT IS A LAMP UNTO YOUR FEET
AND A LIGHT UNTO YOUR PATH
WILL NOT RETURN TO ME VOID OR EMPTY!
I SEE YOUR STRUGGLES SON,
WILL YOU TRUST ME ENOUGH TO STAND FIRM
IN ME AS YOU GIVE THEM TO ME?
TEMPTATION IS ALWAYS GOING TO
BE PRESENT THIS SIDE OF HEAVEN,
BUT REMAIN IN ME, AND I WILL DELIVER YOU,
FOR I AM VICTORY.
CHILD, YOU ARE VICTORY WHEN YOU REMAIN
IN ME.
APART FROM ME
YOU CAN DO NOTHING….
THIS MESSAGE,
THIS TRUTH,
This Truth is for you!
You matter…
