So this month was entirely about evangelism. This is not necessarily something I am great at and it is hard for people overseas to understand what I say because of my accent and how I speak. Because of that and some other things I was honestly was scared of the ministry for the month. The first day of ministry this was my thought. “You want me to talk to complete strangers that probably won’t even understand me. I don’t think so. I will just go along and let others speak to people and I will pray for them while they are talking.” The first day of ministry I did this. I realized I could do this for the entire month and it would be a piece of cake. But after the first day I realized that I was just trying to stay in my comfort zone. I didn’t trust the Spirit to speak through me. So after the first day I decided I was going to dive head first into the ministry this month. I needed the challenge. I had never done this before and this is the perfect opportunity to learn a new thing. So I told God I was sorry for yet again not trusting him and trying to stay in my comfort zone. I told him I wanted to learn this month and get outside my comfort zone. After that God really did throw me out of it. I found myself sharing my testimony to random people on the streets, stores, and buses. Praying for healing over people’s body. Which by the way, I realized is way out of my comfort zone. In my life I always prayed healing over myself or in my mind for other people. But very few times have I actually laid hands over people and asked for healing. I believe 100 percent in healing but I was always was to nervous to pray over people for healing because I doubted God would use me in that way. God has also been calling me out on my attitude. This past month living in one place with 55 people, 55 different opinions, 55 different personalities have been HARD!!!! I have really had to watch my tongue. I learned I could be defensive and snappy quick and I will admit there was a time or two I did snap a little. But I learned to have grace with people. But for real though leaving with 55 people for a month in a small space is rough. However, it was absolutely wonderful staying with everyone. I got to spend time with people I normally would not get to. I also got to learn about people and their life and what God is teaching them. I loved how we got to learn together how to live with that many people. We all learned so much in doing so. Another thing God was showing me was how he is my friend. I have always known God was my friend but he really showed me this in a different way this month. One night durning worship, I sat down in a room and went to my secret garden in my mind (A dock over water). God was just chilling sitting in the water. Long story short me and God ended up just laying on the dock together looking at the stars and moon and I just started talking to him about everything. It was great because this is exactly what i do with my best friends. We go to the dock and just talk. God reminded me that night he was a friend of mine that could just chill and talk. So I want to encourage the readers of this blog to start looking at God as a best friend who will just listen to you.
