It’s March 2016 and I will be feeling 22 soon. Is looking out and seeing the desert of Southern Africa, traveling the world, and spreading The Gospel what I thought I would be doing with my life at this point??
I thought I was going to finish college this year.
I thought I would have a girlfriend by now.
I thought I would have gotten into good shape.
I thought I would be so close to Jesus I could be just like him with no fail.
Well ya boi thought darn wrong.
This month has been crazy. In the terms of ministry not so much because it has been either my skill set or I liked it a lot. It has been crazy because I am day by day learning about who Jesus has destined me to be.
These things I couldn’t learn in a classroom, back home or in any other place. The Lord had to rip me out of comfort and into dependence on him.
God put me on team with 4 women. I love them dearly and am learning to trust and seek guidance from them. They have given me some of the hardest feedback that I sometimes don’t agree with but I have learned so much from them already. They have given me a glimpse into their lives and they are enriching mine.
Healthy rhythms don’t come easy. If you don’t choose to do things they won’t just happen. If I want to lose weight I have to make moves and not excuses.
The past year has been a hard one for my walk with The Lord. I have entered a place of having a lot more knowledge of the bible and Jesus. But I have fallen away from daily being in the word and praying.
I thought being here would make it easier. It has made it harder, if anything. It’s not just about knowing Jesus loves me. It’s feeling and living from a peace of utter joy that Jesus didn’t have to die for me, but he choose death for me.
He did that so he could give me everlasting life in heaven. But he also wants dependence and sacrifice from me on earth.
I am combining a time of learning and growth that happens in this stage of life, with being in third world countries and with people I am learning to trust and love.
I continue to question why God choose this for me, why here, and why now.
But I want to embrace these questions because I know they have a good answer.
This month I embraced a last minute ask to go to a late night service in which all the singing was in Tswana after a long day.
I embraced listening to others more.
I embraced teaching kids ping pong.
I embraced that I need to focus on Jesus more and more everyday.
I embraced ministering to men who are in prison for murder, theft, rape, etc.
This is what the lord is teaching me.
This is what I am doing.
Embracing.
See what this is for your life. Embrace the hardships, the struggles, the good things, the exciting things. But don’t sit back and not even question what is going on. Do that and so much more.
And embrace my journey. I would love if you prayed for me and my team. Also I still need $3,250 to be fully funded for this jounrey. Join in me and having that prayer fulfilled by April 30th. Thank you for reading and praying for me.
May grace, peace, love, and joy from Jesus Christ wash over your soul and renew you daily.
