I have a weird sense of calmness and anxiety going through me right now. Calmness because I am growing into a state of knowing this is what The Lord has planned for me. This has been a year in the making for me. The actual things I am going to do and encounter haven’t even happened yet and I am I’m this state.
It’s a weird pit in my stomach that I can’t shake. As I write this I realize most of this anxiety comes from not being in the word and this is what I read.
For he chose us in Christ before the foundation of the world that we may be holy and unblemished in his sight in love. He did this by predestining us to adoption as his sons through Jesus Christ, according to the pleasure of his will – to the praise of the glory of his grace that he has freely bestowed on us in his dearly loved Son. In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace that he lavished on us in all wisdom and insight. He did this when he revealed to us the secret of his will, according to his good pleasure that he set forth in Christ,
Ephesians 1:4-9 NET
I get so caught up in what’s going on that I forget first and foremost why I even applied to The World Race. I did it because I want to be uncomfortable. I want to be open to seeing God work in me and grow in me. I want to have experiences that will change my life and make me more in tune with Jesus Christ.
This can translate to you also. Let Jesus put you in to positions where you can’t control what is next be dependent on Him. This can be new friends, a new job, going on last minute adventures, finances, and everything in between. Trust that he is lord and has a plan for You.
I have a few days of training then I leave for South Africa on Monday. Please pray for me and my team.
Pray for my growth this year. Pray for the people I get the pleasure of being with. Pray for my finances, I still $6,000 more to be fully funded. Y’all felt called to help and got me $2,800 in the course of 20 days so that I could hit my deadline days before it was due. I pray that you can help me in this mission.
May grace and peace flow through you this year.
