I’m
struggling with fear. Fear of the
unknown. Fear of getting malaria. Fear of being robbed. Fear of leaving home. I have
already spent many hours that were devoted to sleep worrying about what is
coming in the next year for Dustin and I.
It is frustrating because when I think about this trip, I want to be
nothing but excited. And I am excited,
don’t get me wrong, but Satan has invaded my thoughts of real dangers and
stolen my joy.
But
God is a beautiful God. Every time I talk
to Him about my struggles, I hear Him saying, “I’m bigger than the unknown.” and “I’m bigger than sickness, robbery, and
leaving your loved ones.”
I
have to be reminded daily that God is bigger than all these worries. I had a revelation yesterday that God is
allowing me to feel these things and work through them now, so that when I am
far away from home, I know where to turn.
I know Who to trust. I know how
to be fearless. So here I am. On a journey to become fearless and let God
do His work through me. It is going to
be an amazing year!
