I’ve been here before. Bags nearly packed with a visa in my hand ready to leave on a plane that is once again taking me into a new home for a new season of life. New relationships, new places, new foods, and adventures all at the edge of my fingertips. But once again a little sliver of doubt has crept in.
Even though my heart is filled with so much expectancy and excitement I still sit here afraid of the unknown. Afraid of the new city I will be moving to in a few weeks, afraid of not knowing my way around a new place, afraid of not having all my funding, and afraid of being without my community that has become my family.
And through this I have come to realize how similar I am to the Israelites. The Lord constantly did amazing and miraculous things throughout their story, and he still is, but at the blink of an eye they turned their backs and forgot all that he had done for them. One day they are walking through a parted sea, and the next they are receiving manna from the sky, but a few years later they forget all he has asked them to do. Like love him.
And here I am with the same problem, being as easily swayed by my thoughts and fears just because there is a little bit of fog ahead.
How many times has the Lord provided for me in the past? How many families have I been adopted into through the community he surrounded me with? How many miracles have I seen before my own eyes?
The answer is too many to count. So do I enter into this next season with some fear of the unknown, yes, but does that stop me from jumping in with both feet and an open heart? Never.
Because he never fails me.
Financial Update:
I am currently in need of a few more monthly partners to be funded for my internship in Manchester. I leave on August 22 and would like to have $300 more of monthly commitments by then. So if you feel led to give $25, $50, $100 or any other amount a month please let me know at [email protected].
You can also donate to my “house-warming” fund so that when I arrive in Manchester I can purchase bedding and various furnishings I won’t be able to travel with over the pond via Paypal –> [email protected].
