Usually, when I feel I have something important to say
I'll write it all down and throw it away
The next day I wont care
So there's no reason to share
But this thought and feeling
Has been in my head screaming
It's both a fear and relief
To get it all down and let someone read
But I've realized this thought is not just for me
In fact, not for me at all
But from me, and from my heart
I must ask what you think
Of me and this dream
I must ask what you expect to see
From this life I've chosen to lead
Because I can't promise excitement
I may not find that "road to enlightenment"
I just want to love God and His people
Not that this task is so feeble
But may I ask for your support in a new way
As I learn and stumble and make mistakes?
Expectations are tricky things
Worse it seems, when they're placed on me
My only desire is His heart to overtake my own
But how to let that happen, I have not yet known
I can promise you this
I'll try every day
I have already vowed to patiently obey
I don't know where He'll lead
Or what He'll make of me
I may not present a great story
Or tales of triumph and glory
So if that's what you wanted to see
I can say it can't be found in me
I'm seeking the same as you
Waiting for my king to come into view
Don't think I'm not thankful
I tell you, my heart is so full
Just remember I'm human and weak
The strength is in Him I seek
To Him I lay down my crown
Along with the fear that I might let Him down
