Some things are just awkward to blog about…
You may have read a blog I wrote about cuddling orphans, but you didn't read about the time my teammate spent combing lice out of my hair. You may have watched my team's "cribs" video or read a blog about our amazing hosts, but what you don't read about… well, to put it bluntly… is how much it SUCKS to have to literally take TP back out of the toilet because you can't flush it and your body has muscle memory to just toss it in. You don't read about farmer tans and inch-long leg hair, or see pictures of bug bite scars from two months ago, blending in with the new ones.
Because who (besides apparently me) wants to share that? That's awkward!
But honestly, I would rather write fifteen blogs about that stuff than possibly the most awkward subject for me… finances.
I currently need about $400 by the end of this month and $5,681.30 by the end of December to be FULLY FUNDED.
Point blank, there it is. So why am I able to say this now?
As I wrote in a previous blog, most of my life, I have struggled with guilt. To the point that I would replay things for years, feeling bad about them although no one even remembered. This played a huge part in my fear of fundraising. That fear is gone. It left when I prayed and battled spiritually for a disabled orphan crying out during a serious attack. It left when I watched a tiny boy who had been given at such a young age to a buddist temple to serve as a monk cuddle a new teddy bear like it was the world's most valuable treasure, to see him win three rounds of sword fight (which before he hadn't even been allowed to play), and to see him hearing/reading the truth of God's love for him for the first time. It's still a battle, but it leaves every time God points through the darkness around us and illuminates someone, "That one!" It leaves every time we see someone begin to understand this crazy love, this love that motivates us and strengthens us through lice and homesickness, through bodily sickness, mosquitoes, and exhaustion. Because without these awkward moments, there would be no "bloggable" moments. And without funds, none of this is possible.
I ask you to donate whatever you can; $10, $25, $50, $100…$1000! See that little "Support Me" tab? I can't even say how appreciative I would be if you clicked it! God is up to big things all over, and it never stops when we leave. You don't just empower and enable us to spread the word and love on people but you empower us to empower the long-term missionaries we're with and to connect future missionaries back home with ministries! That's why this fear is broken! Because I KNOW that your dollar is doing more than "supporting me". Your dollar is doing God's work. Your dollar is growing the kingdom!
Thank you!
Dresdyn Johnson
