Debrief is fun because it is like a family reunion. You get to see the whole squad together and listen to some peoples’ stories about how their month went, what the Lord is teaching them, learning their spiritual gifts, and the relationships they built with the people they were ministering to. It’s a time to just relax and enjoy everyone’s company and a chance to take naps and soak in what you have learned for the month.
My team went first to have debrief and met with the 3 squad leaders and coaches for our squad. We entered into the hotel, we all sat in a circle and there were yummy treats for us to enjoy. We all went around the circle and talked about what we have experienced in the past 2 months on the race. When we were done, we all were surprised because we thought there would be more to it. I was scared for nothing because I never do well when it comes to talking with people of higher authority.
A couple of days later Luke (my team leader) said we had to go back and meet with everyone again. It was then I thought “Man it was too good to be true that we didn’t have to go back and talk to everyone again.” Once we entered, there was another team that was meeting with us too. I thought maybe we would be working together for this upcoming month. However, the bomb hit. We were going to lose one of our team members to another team. I know there are team changes on the race, but I never realized that it would be that soon.
My lovely Sidney Ann was moving to be a team leader for an all girls team. I was crushed and couldn’t believe that it was happening again to me. I had let someone in my little bubble and they are leaving me. The truth is I had tears and hid so no one could see them. However, everyone in the room was very kind and very supportive of both teams. I was hurt and didn’t want anyone near me or even try and touch me to comfort me.
After the meeting we decided as a family to have an outing for lunch, so we were able to talk about how we felt. I decided to let it out and I told everyone that I was pissed and felt like the enemy has won against me. However, on the walk back to the hostel for a squad meeting, I started to talk to my Daddy and He reassured me that everything will be alright, and it was the best for both teams. Sidney Ann has taught me to listen to my Daddy more, and it was awesome to experience supernatural things like seeing a star angel. She was my push for some things and now that she is not here, it is my turn to push myself. I have learned that the enemy has not won during this weak moment I had, because I ran to my Father.
