HELLO sweet souls!
It has definitely been a hot minute since I’ve taken the time to update the blog but here I (finally) am!
The past few months have been months of confusion, doubt, worry and restlessness. I was accepted to the Race, I told everyone I knew, and then nothing happened. I don’t know if I expected someone to throw me a rowdy fiesta or what but for some reason I was underwhelmed.
That’s when the doubt kicked in.
Add in a few not-so-great conversations with family/friends and woah nelly, the doubt and confusion rushed in.
It’s one thing to hype yourself up for something as radical as the Race but its a whole different level to begin telling everyone in your life about it. It always starts with excitement and shock and “”WOW! That’s great! You’re young! Go live your life!” but then the questions start.
I’m all for questions, ask away, but after about 50 the joy of telling you about this new adventure starts to fade. After about 75 I begin to think that this really isn’t the way I should be spending a year of my life.
The month of February basically became the month of hospitals.
On Valentines day my mom went into the emergency room and was then transferred to a regular room the next day. She was discharged from the hospital on Friday and my Grandmother (aka Lita) was taken to the emergency room on Saturday.
I really wish I was kidding.
Lita was transferred from the ER into ICU and within a week and a few days she joined our Heavenly Father.
The vigil and rosary service were held on Thursday and the funeral on Friday and the next day, Saturday, Michael and I drove an hour north to Livingston, TX to help staff the Senior Retreat.
It was on Saturday that I realized that I needed to continue with the plans to go on the Race.
I remember this moment clear as day: One of the teens came up to me after one of the activities and said
“Thank you for showing us how to live life to the best of our ability and for never being afraid to say Yes.”
I was floored. Here I am sitting here second guessing myself and the plan the Lord has for me and all the teens see is a cool college kid that wants to help the World.
I thought to myself,
“Why cant I be a cool college kid that wants to help the World? Why can’t I stand firm in my faith and try to move mountains? Why can’t I live the life and share the news that I know I am so capable of doing?”
And the answer is I can.
WOAH FRICKIN NELLY when I finally realized that it was like a spark shot through me.
So hold onto your seats everybody because I’m ready to go at this thing with full force. Get ready for more blog updates, more joy and a whole lot more Jesus.
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