Hey, friends! I am so sorry you haven’t heard from me in awhile. It’s certainly not because our Abba hasn’t been rocking the globe, I think its because He has been doing so much that honestly, it overwhelms me trying to put it into words. It’s that cliche thing were I am scared that my words won’t be enough or it has to be rapped in a nice pretty little package and presented with a bow on top. I think most of us can relate if we are being honest. If there is one thing the father has taught me, He wants to set us free from believing the lies of perfectionism, comparison, and what ever else that controls us, causing us not to brag on the beauty of our King.
I feel Papa telling me to come before you, my friends, real and raw letting you know that I am tired. I’m talking real tired. Physically, spiritually, and emotionally. Just plain tired. I know that most of you can relate. Some of you are living the rat race of of a life that requires you to wake up, race to work, race home to do more work, race to run the kids to sports practice(s), race to hopefully have a little extra time to spend with your husband or wife at the end of the day. For some of you, you are single, working two jobs just trying to make ends meet, feeling hopeless and like nothing you do matters, kind of like you are on a treadmill; you’re running the race but you are getting no where (I always hated those things. I like for the scenery to change once in awhile). Others may think you have it all, a nice job, a nice home, a life that should make you feel free but at the end of the day you feel like a glass bottle with wholes in it, no matter how much water you pour in, you never get full and you just don’t quite understand. You are tired. Real tired. You keep trying to fill yourself up with more sleep, more Netflix, more people, more alcohol, more pornography more, more, more, of something that will make you numb to the settling feeling that this is just your life. This…is just who you are.
Friend, I am here to tell you that’s a lie straight from hell. You are so much more and our father wants you, He wants all of you. He waits patiently for intimacy with you each day to be able to fill you up with tender kisses of his peace, and He longs to give you rest. Sit with Him and breath in His goodness. Let His breath give you life.
You don’t have to tell me that this life is hard. I know it full well. I know many of us scroll through our news feed on social media comparing our lives wishing we had something different…we have that “if I could just have that” mentality. I am sure if you follow me on my insta you think that I am living in a dream boat and somedays I am. What you don’t see are those days I just don’t quite feel like I am enough. I feel unworthy, like I am not making a difference. Those days I am stripped from all my comforts for weeks at a time and I just want air conditioning, a nice outfit, and a large doctor pepper. Not to mention I have been robbed twice. Or lets get a little deeper; the daunting feeling that I am hard to love or unlovable, the fact that I have gained at least 15 to 20 pounds, I have no abs, and there is no definition in my arms, and I am constantly insecure about my appearance and honestly there isn’t a whole lot I can do about it at the moment. My eyes have seen some really hard things and each month I have to pack up and leave the people that have seeped into my heart crevices, leaving them in the Fathers hands and knowing that I have no control.
I think thats the key word…control. We try to control every aspect of our lives. Manipulating it to our fortitude. We fill our lives with things that drain us or we simply don’t vocalize to our father that we are tired and we need Him. Friends, we have to fight for each other. Fight for intimacy with Him. Fight to be kingdom shakers. Fight against apathy. I am asking for you to fight for me and I would love to fight for you. I want to intercede for you to live and walk in fullness with Him.
A wise man once said “I would rather walk through the storm with Him then sit on dry ground with out Him.” Let’s be fierce in the pursuit of our beholder and let Him captivate us in a way He has never captured us before….even when we’re exhausted, even when lies are being thrown at us like darts are thrown at a dart board, even when we have no control; Let us praise Him for He is good.
Isaiah 43:20-21
His love and mine!
