Before we get started I want to first add that this post is very much influenced through a book called greater and Lauren Daigle singing loudly in the back ground here’s my heart Lord.
As I awoke today from a very restless night of sleep with satan racking my brain and breathing down my throat as soon as my eyelids opened I automatically went in to panic mode. To be honest with you most days are like that right now, constant brutal war or further known as spiritual war-fair. If there is one thing I’m learning along with a multitude of other things that I will further discuss, it is that you can never be prepared for what God has called you to do. No matter how long you have seen it coming.
Today during my quiet time Steven Furtick said something that struck me, he said “God doesn’t do details. God doesn’t neccessarily tell you how He will do it, only that He will do it. If you sit around waiting for Him to tell you how He is going to hold up His end before you start torching your plows, (something I will speak of later) you are in for an awfully long wait. Truth be told, you are probably in for a lifetime of waiting. And it can be frustrating to follow a God like that.”
I am normally a black or white sort of person and I hate (emphasis on hate) shades of grey which is precisly exactly what my life color is right now.
I am also learning that God is a man of few words. He shows us this all through out scripture. In (Genesis 12:1) He says to Abraham, “Go to the land and I will show you.” He doesn’t promise Him comfort or a detailed life plan He simply says “Go” and expects Abraham to just trust. In (Matthew 14:29) He tells peter “come” I imagine Peter on the boat looking out at the chaotic waters seeing Jesus with His hand out and hearing Him calmly say “come”. I imagine that things got real with Peter in that moment, He probably had things going through His head that made it seem impossible to make that first step. He probably wanted desperately for Jesus to just give Him the detail on how to walk on water. To give him the master plan. To give him the result of the outcome.
I am learning that sometimes the outcome is simply Him wanting us to humbly come before Him in all our fragility in knowing that the very air we breath in our lungs as we inhale and exhale is from Him. Sometimes just one word is enough.
But first before we can radically trust Him and see Him for who He truly is we have to burn some plows just like Elisha did in (1 Kings 19:21) ” Elisha took his yoke of oxen and slaughtered them. He burned the plowing equipment to cook the meat and gave it to the people, and they ate. Then he set out to follow Elijah.” Jesus sent Elijah to tell Elisha that He had better and greater plans for him. Better plans than the comfort of Elisha’s comfortable stagnent life. Instead of wondering what those plans where and hestiating on what to do Elisha shows us what it means to radically and boldly run after God. He burns all that will weigh him down on His new journey. He knows that in order to follow God into the tough places, He has to pack light. He no longer wants to be chained to the ordinary He knows that the extraordinary awaits him just around the bend.
In mine and His time today the Lord was speaking to me, I was reminded of a few plows I still need to burn. Jesus has been stripping me from everything I’ve ever known. All my comfort has been torn down. And while it seems like the most terrible position ever most days, He reminds me that the extraordinary just awaits me around the bend. But He reminds me I have to pack light and trust Him with every moment and every second of my day. This is not a familiar place. This is not a comfortable place. There is not detail of what the outcome will be or what will happen to the things I leave behind but He says “go” and that is exactly what I must do.
