There are a lot of things I could write about. A lot of stories of healings, prayer walks, and ministry I could share. I could write a book on the issues in Manila I see and things God has done since I have been here. But I want to make it simple. I want you to know my heart, my emotions, and desires right now. I left Guatemala feeling like I could go back and help my contact at Agape in Action with their need for a cook. I left Nica feeling like I could go back and have a great community with REAP Granada and start a music ministry, art therapy, and eventually open a children’s home. Now I am in Asia and realizing the need they have here for a peace maker and someone who will pursue and love until children are safe. In the last few days I have been talking with God a lot. Asking him why I feel like I can live and love anywhere. It makes it hard to feel secure in myself. But that is the point. All my life I have been chasing titles and accomplishments. Basing my worth on what I have achieved. Now God has proved to me that I am worth far more than just one idea I have for my life. That I can love deeply anyone he places in my path. That I have gifts and talents to go and spread the gospel anywhere. For the first time in my life I am more than okay with not having a plan and letting go of control. Because , God made me so well, and I know whatever The Lord brings will be my focus and love. It could be a family, it could be a children’s home, it could be a tribe in Africa. I CHOOSE to love it all the same. This may make me seem whimsical and like I am irresponsible. But, I promise all my friends back at home. Whatever I find to do I will do it with all my might.
