“My vision propelled me into wanting to be a missionary. But had become an idol in my head. The dream I had as a new believer 10 years ago became everything I was living for, not God. “I had to make it to Ecuador to be a missionary” had become my focus. “
– June 13, 2014 (World Race Blog)
“I find myself staring at nature a lot lately and daydreaming about Africa. I originally was so excited about South America. Although I still am my mind cant depart from the first country I set foot into”
-June 5, 2014 (World Race Blog)
” Over the last three months I have begun the process of learning how to pray the will of God in my life (not pray for what I want)I found myself in the beginning in agony as though the voice of God would boom down and just speak. However, I noticed over the course of the last three months God answers in a whisper.”
– May 24, 2014 (World Race Blog)
“You must first be willing to sacrifice yourself, your wants, your will for God’s will… Including everything God may or may not have told you. It’s all Gods. It’s all his. He wants to hold you. If you can’t let him, forget trying to understand his will because you have already chosen what it is. You have become your own god… Watch your idol fall… Watch yourself self destruct.”
– May 18, 2014 (Personal Journal)
I looked back at my journals and blog post when I got an email from Adventures in Missions to join a conference call. The conference call was with the CEO and was information about the need for a selected group of missionaries to change routes. They had a specific need for their missionaries that fell in line with my heart for sharing the gospel creatively. I felt the tug,The Lord wanted me to submit and let go of my control. I called into the conference call and heard about a project they were interested in doing. When I hung the phone two hours later I screamed with excitement and literally bounced around the room for 15 minutes before I bounced downstairs to tell my family. I was going to be able to see creative ministry take place if I was switched. I felt as though God was laughing in my joy, as though he would say, “I knew you before you were born. I knit you to love creativity. Your willingness has blessed you with the desires of your heart.” So I told the board I was very interested and was so grateful to even be considered. The missions board had to do yet another really intense overview of my profile. Already having gone through several interviews previous to their further investigation, I was nervously excited. Then I got the email…They wanted to change me immediately and today I was switched. So once again, I am in waiting because now I do not know the countries I am going to. I have no idea how God intends on using me. But now I wait with a smile on my face and a growing trust in my Savior. The best is yet to come… for the gospels sake not for my own.
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