I hesitated in writing this blog for two reasons.
1. What if this was too personal?
2. What if people I call friends who do not believe in God judge me for my words
My questions were met with;
1. Nothing is too personal when it comes to accountability and humility. I was baptized in front of a crowd of witnesses for this very reason.
2. I trust those who disagree to find it in their hearts to hear me out and embrace the understanding. Because, if I call myself a Christian these things must occur. I would rather live this way.
In the last three weeks I have been making changes in everything. Starting with the way I think, what I read, what I talk about, and the actions I entertain. Why?
I have always been a big advocate for waiting. (Yes, let’s talk about sex.) For 24 of my 24 years I saw this as purity. I sported a purity ring in high school like most “goody good shoes” (as people referred to me as) Christian girls would. I turned down more booty calls than I ever thought I would have to in college. I even had guys feel the need to blow up at me and curse at me for being too good.
I made a commitment to remain pure.
But with in this last month I realized I was wrong about purity for 24 years. That ring I wore in high school in all honesty was just a symbol to guys they were not going to get anything
(so don’t even try). To have called it a purity ring like I did…I was in the wrong to do so.
“Waiting” has only about 10% to do with remaining pure. I got to thinking after hearing scriptural advice to husbands to keep their wives blameless and pure… If purity is only about virginity we all know that isn’t going to happen. ( I mean let’s be real)
So what is purity? What should that ring really mean? It means that we will attempt (and fail but live in constant confession to our wrongs) live with out lust, anger, jealousy, gossip, hurting others and ourselves, fear and any Biblical principle encouraged in the Bible. It means we live in constant accountability to our actions.
I’ve waited, but I promise I am not pure. I have been reevaluating myself a lot lately. I want to live this way because in past experiences the other is partnered with more struggles and issues.
So my adventure starts….
This is where I am at. I will be writing a blog this week dealing with specifics in fundraising since I have not done so in some time.
I hope you accept where I stand right now and find encouragement in your own walk from it.
With love,
Me
