I still can’t believe that I leave in just 7 days and I don’t think any of it will hit me until I am sitting on the airplane about to leave Minnesota for 9 WHOLE MONTHS….
…….whaaaaaaaaaat?!
I feel so unprepared & have been wondering why God would choose me out of everyone to go on this trip. I can tell you that I wasn’t called to go on this mission trip because I have my life together or because I never sin or because I’m better than anyone else, simply because none of that is true. I’m just an average person who fails daily and is in constant need of God’s grace, yet He still chose me.
He knows how messy my heart is and everything I struggle with, yet He wants me.
He knows I don’t always trust His plan like I should and sometimes think I have a better plan for my life (take it from me- God knows what He is doing), but He loves me all the same. And if that doesn’t scream out unfailing love, then I don’t know what will.
It is so hard to try to prepare myself for a life full of unknowns- but I am trusting that God knows what He’s doing and will guide me every step of the way. No more of this dipping my toes in the water business, I am diving head first into the deep water fully knowing that I am going to have to learn to rely and lean on God like never before.
7 days left of warm showers
7 days left of sleeping in my comfy bed in an air conditioned house
7 days left of cuddling with my cat & dog
7 days left of all my favorite home cooked meals
7 days left of hanging out with my family
7 days left of living in my perfect little comfortable bubble and I am perfectly okay with that.
because even though there are things I will have to leave behind for 9 months that I am certainly going to miss- I am going to gain so much more. I mean I get to share the love of Jesus to people and tell them all about the hope and peace that can be found in Him…. so worth giving up my comfort zone for.
9 months of building community with all my teammates and squadmates
9 months of being pushed out of my comfort zone to have to trust God
9 months of building relationships with locals
9 months of letting God use me to bring hope & love to others
9 months of using squatty potties and cold bucket showers
9 months of my house being a tent, my closet being my backpack, and my bed being my sleeping bag
9 months of traveling the world and learning different cultures
I know there are going to be days over the 9 months where I just want to give up and go back to my comfortable life. It’s not always going to be a glamorous time- but I’m so ready to embrace all the fun memories and all the hard parts of this trip. Something a lot of people tell me when I talk about this trip is “you are going to come back a completely different person” and I fully believe that to be true after all the new experiences I will have.
AND I CAN’T WAIT.
