Seeing Through the Eyes of Christ
How do you see people? How do you look and view the opposite sex? Take a moment and honestly think about this one. Self reflect and have God give your heart a check.
This blog is going to be written from a mans perspective and from my own personal struggles. I know there are a lot of men of Christ currently held captive by the sins of this world. Held captive by; porn, adultery, lust, self gratification, or your condescending demeanor towards women. I know there are many more sins that we all are dealing with but I’m going to focus more on the adulterous side. I want people to know that they are not alone in there trials. There are many of us that face the same demons in our lifetime.
I’m writing this blog to tell you about the power in the blood of Jesus Christ & His Holy Spirit. His capabilities are endless. There is no sin that can’t be conquered through Christ and Christ alone. I know this is true because I lived through it. I am Gods testimony to His endless pursuit for His children. Gods endless love and grace is what is making me into the man of God that I am becoming.
Growing up consisted of me seeking affirmation from women. At a young age I was introduced to porn which lead me into a dark, self-seeking, self-gratifying lifestyle. It changed my whole perspective and outlook on many things in life. My motives changed. The way I viewed and looked at women changed. The way I talked and treated women changed. I became a very selfish person through all of it. I was only looking for things to gratify my fleshy desires. This was an unfortunately large part of my life after middle school. Jumping from relationship to relationship – all broken and seriously lacking Christ. This filled my life with heartbreak and lust. I never thought that I was held captive by sin. Sin is pleasurable. Sin is deceiving. A lot of the time it’s hard to see. The devil is very good at what he does. He knows your fleshly desires and knows exactly what your weak spots are. Sin will satisfy momentarily and leave you wanting more. If you let it take captive, sin will soon overtake your life. It will take you deeper and deeper into sin. I know this is true because it happened to me. At first it was just watching porn once a month till it turned into an everyday occurrence. These tendencies started to affect my relationships with women. Relationships were not focused on emotional connection but rather the possible physical connection. I was seeking affirmation and finding my worth in women. All of these are products of my sins. My personality changed as well. I pulled back from my family to live a life outside my home. I was two faced all of the time, saying one thing and doing the other. Sin affects everything.
I’m telling you this as proof. Proof that you are never too far gone. Proof that anything can be transformed through the power of Jesus Christ. Proof that there is hope and a new beginning. I want to share with you the transformation that occurred in my life. The transformation that is still happening and always will be happening.
Being on this race has taught me to have the mind and eyes of Christ. I never thought I could overcome this sin. It’s not like I don’t have temptations anymore – the Holy Spirit has just help me put to death the deeds of my flesh. Until the day Christ returns, temptation will still be in this world. The battle will exist until the end of the age. But God can renew. By His endless love and grace – we are saved. He is the creator of everything – the giver of life. There is nothing our Lord cannot do.
By the grace of God I am renewed in Him.
All throughout Nicaragua (While partnering in the Gospel with Team Wildflowers, an all girls team.) I was able to see through the eyes of Christ. God renewed my mind and scandalous ways. I am now able to look at women as children of God. I can see the true beauty in them. I can see joy from the Lord radiating out of them. I can see the Holy Spirit working in their lives and hearts. I can honestly see them as my sisters in Christ – My family. I’m starting to see the bigger picture. I’m seeing the body as one. One church, one body all working together to bring the Kingdom.
Seeing the way God sees His children has been one of the most beautiful and life changing transformations. I can’t thank the Father enough for what He has given me. I can’t thank Him enough knowing how dark my past was. I can’t thank Him enough for the renewal of my mind and eyes.
The Wildflowers have taught me so much. They have impacted me more than I could have ever imagined.
It’s funny how God teaches you.
So, thank you team Wildflowers for pouring into me and being the community my heart so longed for. Thank you for excepting me and allowing me to pour into you. You will always be my sisters and will always have a part in my testimony.
Last note: I still need $3,800 to be fully funded for this trip. My deadline is in a month. If the Lord moves your heart to donate – be obedient, He loves it.
