All women want to be romanced and pursued. At least I haven’t spoken or heard any girls heart tell me otherwise as I’ve listened to their dreams. I full heartedly believe that the Lord places that desire in each woman’s heart. We want a dashing hero, full of valor and courage we will woe us in a great adventure for our hearts. If you were to ask me or any other girl what we want in a guy we could give you the run through with personality, character, and all the works! The desire to be loved and seen in our deepest parts of our hearts is engraved in us.
I’ve always loved the thought of being romanced by the Creator. I fully believe that that’s what He truly wants to do. He pursues me, makes me shiver, sends me on a great adventure, paints me pictures in the sky, sends rain to lather me in kisses, gives me joy by His presence. I recently was struck all over again with the thought that He’s a jealous God. He doesn’t want to share my affections with anything else. Along with the realization came the reality that I’ve been making Him do just that. I’ve kept rooms in my heart reserved for other things. It so deeply saddens Him. God doesn’t let that push Him away from me though, but it only adds to the fuel of reaching for me. I’m blown away by His patience in capturing my whole heart. I love how tender and soft He is with me.
This week I’ve just been struck with how much He only wants the best for me. In a warped way of thinking I can sometimes view God as someone who’s trying to manipulate things for His own good. In reality though I’m given choices to choose what way I want to go over and over again. And in that I’m choosing to pursue back my Creator back or reject him for an hour/season. The Holy Spirit prompts you for the good of Christ which is in turn for your own good also. There’s not a greater adrenaline rush than following the Spirit. I’ve talked to lots of people who say they have never heard the Holy Spirit and don’t understand. But I so want to encourage you that if that’s you then i can guarantee you that you have heard His voice! You just have to tap in to truly wanting to hear Him and not just hear Him, but to listen to Him. The more you say yes to God and what He wants from you, the more you hear His voice. Just as He pursues is you have to be active part in the relationship too. Trust me, actually no trust God! He clearly states over and over again that if you accept Him into your life that He’s not going to let you be alone on the journey of life. That’s why He died for us… so we could have the Holy Spirit literally come LIVE in our bodies. This is actually literal and not just something said to say.
When I said yes again to God and recommitted to fully living for Christ this past year I knew my heart was going to be wrecked. That my life was going to be wrecked. Because he’s not going to come and leave you like you are. He wants to clean out your heart. The lust, anxiety, jealousy, you name it remaining inside of you He doesn’t like. And in reality it’s so not good for you. You allowing that in your heart and mind rots away at your soul making you feel depressed inside. Been there! I decided that’s not how I want to walk anymore because I want to live in life. The thought of how I can still long for the past hit me. Some weeks my heart thinks back at the past and I honestly would go back. But God worked on my heart from who I was because who I was in my past is not the same person. Longing for things of the past is like saying, “God, I didn’t want you to pursue me or change me.” That realization hurt me. You have to be ready to let you of the past go so that you can walk in the future you of who you are in Christ. God gave me this promise this past week of “The best is yet to come!” Im clinging to that when I come to weeks of looking back. Because the pursuit of the Lord has proven to be the best pursuit for me yet.
God is continually preparing His bride for His return. He’s so patient in dealing with our adulterous actions/thoughts still choosing in to us because of His love for us. He desperately wants to be intimate with you. It’s so easy for me to forget that personally. I’m learning to slow my thoughts and allow time to listen to what He has to say. Looking back through my life thus far I’m blown by how much He has been my knight in shining armor. I truly love Him with all my heart.
