Sometimes I get to going so fast I can't even keep up with myself. I do it in my speech when I get excited telling a story. The words start coming out faster and faster until I am stumbling and bumbling over my words and am making no sense. I do it in my sales when I know I am going to sign them up. I rush through the steps of picking out their package and receivers and answering all of their questions. By the time I get done talking handing them the contract to fill out they are looking at me like, is she serious? I have no idea what she just said or what I am even signing up for! You see so much of the time I can see the end result, and I want the end result so badly that I don't slow down and complete the in between to the best of my ability. This makes for a crappy end result. The laughter that would have ensued at the end of my story is half-hearted because they didn't absorb the breadth of detail, the customer is not as excited and more prone to cancel because I didn't adequately explain the details of the features of their DVR and how they can use this product to their benefit.
And now, as I delve into the world of service to the Lord I am catching myself doing the same thing, and God is telling me… Slow down Desirae!! One step at a time, I am here with you,by your side, refining you and teaching you the lessons you need to learn along the way. I want to use you, but you need to slow down, and LISTEN! Walk fully in your struggles and in your steps! There is beauty in everything if we stop and look for it. So much of the time I get caught up in what is to come that I forget to enjoy or appreciate the steps along the way. I want so badly to have God use me for His purposes! (The end result) And I know I can be a powerful servant, I SEE that! But I must be willing to complete the small steps, one by one, little by little to get there. Because more often than not, it is in these small steps is where He wants to use me the most. These things along the way (steps you might say) are what God is using to make me ready, to mold me into the daughter He wants me to be.
Matthew 6:34 "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today."
Matthew 10: 34-39 "Don't imagine that I came to bring peace on earth! No, I came to bring a sword. I have come to set a man against His father, and a daughter against he mother, and a daughter in law against her mother in law. Your enemies will be right in your own household! If you love your father or mother more than you love me, you are not worthy of being mine. If you refuse to take up your cross and follow me, you are not worthy of being mine. If you cling to your life you will lose it, but if you give it up for me, you will find it."
