October 23, 2012
“I’m starting this notebook journey to be able to look back on this chaotic time in my life & see how good God is. I found out about a month ago that I have scoliosis. I have had back trouble for a long time now, shocking through my neck, arms, and stomach. I’ve always gotten sick at my stomach very easily, and I’m always in pain. Mom even bought me a new mattress a year ago, because the aching and pain in my back increased dramatically! About a month ago, we all went to the State Fair. Jessy and I road a roller coaster and a big bump popped up on the middle of my spine and was hurting. Mom took me to the doctor, and it turned out to just be a muscle spasm but they took x-rays because they suspected I had scoliosis and they were right. They wanted me to make an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon and recommended physical therapy, but Mom wanted me to try the chiropractor first. The first visit, he took x-rays, but had already noticed I did have scoliosis and the second visit Mom and I got to see the x-rays. It made me sick, and a bit scared honestly. My spine curves into the right side of my body and twist. It has been pushing my upper ribs up and together and has been effecting my nerves. I’ve been to about 6 sessions already, I don’t really like going and I don’t think anyone really just understands that. It hurts me, and the pain thickens. But in order to straighten it, it has to hurt. At first I felt ugly, I felt like a deformed dinosaur, and didn’t really understand why God didn’t knit me together the right way. I cried a lot. Then at the lifechurch service last Sunday, God spoke and I listened. The sermon was about how God can take anything ugly in your life and transform it into something beautiful. It was exactly what I needed to hear. I’m realizing this isn’t about me, it’s about God and trusting His will even at the roughest time in my life. -Not my will, but His!-
“For we are God’s masterpiece…” -Ephesians 2:10″
Let’s just take a moment and giggle please.
Oh my GOODNESS, God is just SO soooo good and I can not express that ENOUGH.
“I’ll tell the world how great and good you are, I’ll shout Hallelujah all day, every day.” |Psalm 35:28|
This story is from a part of my life where I was in so much excruciating pain, and confusion. Even though God spoke to me at a church service and many after that, I still did not understand why He would let me go through so much pain. I was told by many people that scoliosis is a normal thing, and numerous people have it BUT I still was hurting so much to where I was constantly crying… I was always feeling sick… I always felt like needles were poking my fingers… I started having migraines… and nobody knew exactly what pain I was feeling because they couldn’t feel it. I even struggled with feeling ugly, I knew it was on the inside of me but it made the outside feel like there was something wrong with me. “Why does my spine curve Lord? It’s supposed to be straight! I want to trust You, but why wouldn’t You just have drawn it straight when you created me?”
Because He wanted to heal me so that I could share this story with YOU, He wanted the glory.
After seeing a neurologist surgeon, he told me it was something I would just have to deal with for the rest of my life.
BUT GOD LAUGHED, and said “Nuh uh, this is my daughter and I’m gonna heal her.” 🙂
And that He did! About 4 or 5 months ago at my Bible Study, my sweet friends laid their hands on my back and began to pray for healing all at the same time. Instantly, (I kid you not), the pain… was GONE.
Jesus, my beautiful Beloved, healed me that night.
I once went every hour, every day, in so much physical pain but now I have found myself forgetting about this blessing since I now have not seen a chiropractor in months and NO longer have pain!
This is just a reminder that God still to this day does and WANTS to do miracles, if we just ask & believe.
About a week or so ago I was at $1,800 in my fundraising but as of today I am at $4,629! THIS is a miracle. 🙂
I would like to ask for those prayer warriors out there, as my deadline for $6,000 comes up next Tuesday (May 13th), that you would join me in prayer. Pray against the enemy as his schemes and distractions come, they will be shot down. That our glorious God will pour out His blessings, and that the contributors will be blessed even MORE. Yes! Let’s do this y’all!
Thank you guys so much for the prayer, and support. He is FAITHFUL. <3
Blessings,
Desirae Lynn
