I really don’t want to travel 12 hours to Gainesville.
But I really want to see all my squad mates.
I’m really over the world race time to get back to the “real world”.
Well it is a paid for trip.
But I really don’t want to see _______. She’s always being loud and annoying.
I’m sure they will have some great information. Let’s just go and see what happens.
After being back in Dallas for only a couple of days, hoping on a plane and being away from home for another 5 to 7 days was the last thing on my to do list. I’ll be quite honest, until the moment I laid foot on the AIM campus I did not want to come to PSL. I felt like PSL was going to be a complete waste of time and energy just like journey markers, team time, and feed back. I had a pessimistic attitude about the entire week. I wasn’t sure where it was coming from because I am generally a very optimistic person. As always, the Lord shows up and speaks to me through my loved ones but not this time. After talking to a squad mate, she shared with me that she felt the exact same way. Instead of leaving the conversation feeling encouraged and enlightened, I left it feeling more uncertain then before.
You may be waiting to hear the part where God cracked opened the sky and confirmed my trip to PSL. Well it never happened. I chose to trust and to trust that adventures had an amazing program set up to benefit us. I chose to trust that God was going to use this week just like He used the race and trust that my squad mates would be there for me no matter how I was feeling. So I booked a flight 4 days before the program and packed my bags at 5am the morning of my flight.
**Landed at atl airport
Why in the hell did I come here?
This airport is way too big . How do I get to the baggage claim?
Why is my cousin taking so long to get to this airport?
The pessimism came back and I began to regret my decision to come to PSL again before it even started. After a night in Atlanta, a squad mate of mine picked me up from my cousins house and we were off to Gainesville. The rest is history.
I had the absolute worst time being around the ones I loved and those who have supported me the last year of my life. Being led into the presence of the Holy Spirit with worship sessions was horrible and sitting down and listening to speakers pour life into me and my future was a not a good idea. We ate baked potatoes, tacos and fresh fruit for meals–it was the worst. Clearly my sarcasm sounds just as ridiculous as I did when I was trying to justify why I shouldn’t come to PSL. So racers, from me to you, I offer a message and an honest opinion.
Dear World Racers
Even if it doesn’t change your life, it will definitely push you in the right direction. There are classes that will guide you mentally, spiritually, and even financially. They offered breakout sessions that divided us into smaller more personal groups where we were able to ask personal questions and offer advice to other racers as well. They provided us coaches who were experienced in helping to debrief the day. Unfortunately, being fusion we did not get the chance to go to training with the other racers so one of the greatest benefits for me was being able to connect with other African American and Latino racers. As much as I loved my squad there are certain levels we can not connect on. (Like being black). PSL provided free time each day to fellowship with all racers and a prophetic room where you can hear from the Lord.
So there it is, I don’t have a cut and dry answer for you to come or not to come to PSL. However, I will say this–my father has a saying that I love so much. He says “no matter where you are there you are”. Often times people look for a change in scenery as an option to start over new and fresh
Life is all about choice and so just like on the race with journey markers, team time, and feed back, you can look at PSL and say this is a waste of time I could be looking for jobs and figuring out how I’m going to maintain back in the States. Or you can look at PSL as a tool and resource that AIM has put together to ensure the best possible outcome of life after the race.
The choice is yours.
