They say time flies when your having fun and man is that true. Where did the past month of my life go? I have no idea but I do know that every single moment with my Cambodian cuties will be cherished and missed. One of my team members shared a word that she felt God gave her during a time of reflection the other night. One of the things she read that stuck out to me about leaving was “these are my children not yours”. It’s so easy to come in with a savior complex as if we are doing them a favor. After learning that’s far from the truth, we learn to love these kids unconditionally and relationships form very quickly. Ultimately these are Gods children and he has them in the palms of his hands. I have no idea what it feels like to be a parent but I’m sure this is as close as ill get before having my own and wow what an impact in such a short amount of time. God is really doing construction on me and one thing he has revealed to me through these kids is the love and attention they seek from us. Just as tightly as these kids hang to our arms and legs when they get home from school is as tight as we should cling to God. They fight for our time and attention but praise God we never have to fight for his attention. He adores us and wants all of our time and attention even when we neglect him and ignore him he still fights for us. What beautiful imagery I see when I think of how much these orphans want to be in our presence, even just for a little while.
Today was our last day at the orphanage and it was probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to endure. This was a really ruff week for me not only because our time was winding down, but also dealing with unfortunate circumstances back in the states as well. I have been praying and asking God to send me an unimaginable amount of comfort so that I can continue to press in and that’s exactly what he has been doing for me. I told a squad member today its crazy how fast God responded to my prayers of sending me comfort. I have every reason to be angry, shaken up and even disappointed. But what good is it to soak in my anger and fear. “So have no fear of them, for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, say in the light, and what you hear whispered, proclaim on the rooftop. “Matthew 10:26-28 God has great things in store for all of his children. As cliché as it sounds as long as we continue to walk in HIS PATH, not the path we have created for our selves or others but truly his path, things will fall into place. His timing and plans for us are far better then anything we can do for ourselves. My hearts prayer is that I began to live out the things I say and make them more then just words on a piece of paper. I believe with all of my heart God will keep all of my little babies safe and sound. They will grow up to be amazing men and woman of God and change lives though out Cambodia and possibly the world.I am so blessed to have been a extra in Gods amazing production.
