Being here in Thailand has really been the breaking point on
the race for me. I have experienced much personal freedom as well as being part
of a ministry that I really feel passionate about. God has taken a veil off of
my eyes. I have been able to experience more of the heavenly realm and God has
been telling me things that I have never known. I have been able to some extent
understand the bigger picture.
I have been going into the bars to minister to the HUGE
prostitution industry here. We have talked to the men and the women. As I walk
in there, I sing at the top of my lungs that freedom will reign over this
place. I love it. The light will win over darkness.
My friend here can actually see the evil demons that are
following people around. God has shown me though, that every night that we walk
in there, the Angels are lining up for battle. We have seen visions of people
falling to their knees or raising their hands to Jesus; repenting, and running
home to the safety of our Father in heaven.
I was able to talk to a young European guy who was handing
out flyers on the street for something to do with sex. He stood there, looking
lost in his life. Bethany and I knew right away we were to go and talk to him.
I remember just asking him if I could just tell him something. I told him he
was made more for this. He asked why we thought God would have more for “him”.
He tried to tell us he was happy but I told him I didn’t believe him. By the
end of our conversation he knew we were right. We prayed for him and with tears
in his eyes he thanked us. Still wondering why God would choose him for a
bigger purpose.
These people in the bars are in the pit of hell in their
thoughts. Their spirits are dieing and they feel they have no hope. They are so
lonely and no one will come and tell them that there is more for them. Every
single girl that we talk to tells us that she does not like being a prostitute;
but they have to get money for their families. As they dance on those poles
there is absolutely no life in them. Instead of anointing them with the love of
Jesus, the owners go around and put beer on their foreheads for “Good Luck.”
I talked to one 42 year old prostitute. She asked me why
Jesus would think she is wonderful. “I am just a prostitute.” I asked her if
she ever felt loved and she looked me straight in the eyes, “I don’t know what
love is.” She broke my heart. She was alone on the beach, drunk and lonely. She
said, “No one listens to my feelings.” I told her that Jesus does not see her
as a prostitute but he sees her as his daughter and a princess and he loves
her. She couldn’t grasp that someone would love her like that. There is so much
more to the story but she opened up so much and we prayed and spent about two
hours hearing what her life has been like.
My heart breaks for these men and women. There are even
families that bring their young children to these bars at night. I’m talking
babies up to 16 years old. There will be half naked women in the streets,
dancing, and men dressed as women dancing and then comes a stroller with a
child in it right in the middle of it all.
Every night is a battle. We physically feel the weight of
the dark spiritual environment, and some of us see in the spiritual realm. We
were told that God showed two girls what was spiritually happening to these
people. They saw someone at the bar with worms crawling out of their noses, and
a caved in rotting mouth. God was saying, these people are dieing and rotting
inside. No one else saw this but these two Christian girls. But God was clearly
saying, “help me get these sons and daughters of mine back to my kingdom.” And
in Gods kingdom we are radiating with light and surrounded by the Glory of God.
Jesus tells us that when he left earth he gave the Glory of God to all the
believers.
Us girls on “K” squad have never felt more beautiful. We see
the lies that these women are told and we know what God thinks of us; and that
is precious and loved. We are his BELOVED. Radiating and beautiful. I am so
thankful to God that I get to do this during this month. I know that these bars
would be where Jesus would be. He wants to sweep away these women and put them
in white dresses and love them as cherished daughters. He is doing that,
through us.
I believe that Jesus has big and Glorious plans for this
place, or else he wouldn’t have sent us here. Oh the love of God is so great.
