I can’t believe it. Or can I? I mean, it’s been over a year now, but GEEZE it feels like it’s all sneaking up here at the last minute. Today, I leave for training camp. In fact, I’ll be hitting the road in about 30 minutes from right now. I’ve been struggling for a while about what to post leading up to this event, but I keep coming up short. In truth, I’m not sure what to say. I’m nervous, excited, anxious, confused, a little scared, slightly insecure about being the old gal, happy to finally make some progress… I mean, seriously all of this is going on in this very moment.
Training camp is intentionally secretive. They don’t want people to know what to expect because, in reality, on the field we will have no idea what to expect. This trip will be as much mental and spiritual as it is physical. Yes, physical. In fact, I have a fitness test I have to pass before I will be allowed to go on this thingy-majigger. Again – a gi-mongous list of emotions.
One can’t help but wonder what will happen when I come face to face with my squadmates. Even more so, what team will I be a part of within the squad? I barely slept last night. At 2:00 in the morning I was wide awake with anticipation. I couldn’t sleep. So, I worked. Yep, I worked – sending emails about real estate transactions I have currently in place. Then, I watched WR related videos, and then I prayed. For what? Unity. Above all else, I want this group to be a unified unit. I’ve been around the world. This isn’t my first rodeo, and I know firsthand what it’s like to be part of a group is not unified. It’s miserable and counterproductive. Not that I think we won’t be unified, I just know and understand the importance of it, and God is gracious enough to remind me of that – even at 3:00 in the morning.
Continue to pray for me. This week and a half will be challenging. Thank you to all of my supporters.
