Wow, it has been a crazy week in a half. Between graduating college, turning 22, moving into a new apartment, and starting a new job, its been a crazy exciting time in my life. So this evening after eating, a totally disappointing, dinner I am sitting on my couch taking a breath.
I think I’m just now taking it all in that my “next step” isn’t so “next” anymore, its now. I am now fully in the planning and support raising stage of the Race. Honestly, it’s a little scary. It is not a distant plan anymore, it’s right in front of me.
One question I keep getting about my upcoming adventure is “Are you ready?” and my answer is simple, no. I am not ready to get on a plane and leave my life for a year. But I am ready to be ready. I am ready to be overwhelmed by sleeping bags, sleeping mats, backpacks, headlamps, and tents. I am ready to be confused by fundraising and travel medications. A verse that keeps coming to mind when I think about preparing for and leaving for the race is from Esther. In chapter 4, Esther is in conversation with Mordecai in which he says to her “Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for just such a time as this?”. Now I am not going to be crowned Queen anytime soon (I’m not near graceful enough) but this verse still resonates with me. Who am I to say that I was not made for a time such as this exact moment. This moment where I’m sitting on my couch watching TV, knowing that there is work I could be working on, but instead choosing to just be in the moment. This moment is one that I can never get back. I will never again be a recent college graduate trying to figure out my place in the “real world”. I will never again be trying to decide what kind of return address labels I should buy to put on my thank-yous to the generous people who are making my dream of the World Race a reality. I do not say this to sound sad at all, in fact I think it’s kinda beautiful.
It’s a weird place to be when I’m in-between phases and seasons in my life but I am just trying to soak it all in and be fully in each moment and the ups and downs that come with that. For some reason, I’ve taking to call this season in my life “The Middle”. I am totally aware that naming it is totally weird but hey, thats me. Thanks for staying with me in prayer as I continue figuring out all of this craziness that is reality. (And also thanks for trying to follow my crazy train of thought in blog form. In my first post I promised to try and get better, not sure if I’m there yet but practice never hurts).
Much love,
Delaney
