I thought if I read enough scripture, prayed enough prayers, and listened to enough worship music, God would be pleased with me. If I ran hard enough after Jesus, He would turn around to see me. I thought I had to earn my relationship with Him, that is was something to be won.
Thank God I am wrong.
I do not have to actively try to gain His affection. There are no hoops to jump through. No test I have to pass. I don’t have to chase God, because everyday He is chasing after me. He wants me and has asked me to play a role in His world.
God invites each of us into a relationship with Him. A relationship is two people, loving one another, respecting one another, and pursuing one another. It is not one sided. If anything, God loves me abundantly more than I can love Him, but He loves me anyway. He doesn’t love me out of obligation, but it’s a choice. Everyday He chooses me. His choice is not contingent upon my actions at all. I cannot make Him love me any less.
So I’m done.
I’m done living for approval because I already have it.
I’m done trying to be “better” for God because He loves me where I’m at.
I’m done hoping God will notice me because He already knows me and loves me.
I’m done chasing after God and realize that He is chasing after me.
