Gandhi once said that we should be the change we want to see in the world.
And I must admit the one of the things I am looking forward to alot on this journey is CHANGE.
Not just in others or in where I live even though those will be changing too. I’ll be meeting lots of new people and Lord willing some new friends and I will be living in a tent or hostel for almost a year. But I’m looking forward to the change in me and the change in my relationship with Christ. That is the biggest thing I look forward to. I want to learn more about Him and His love and I want to learn how to share it and not hog it all for myself. I want to learn what faith is and what truly depending on Christ is about. I want to learn I can trust Him. I know I can in my head but living it out and placing yourself in the position to where you have to rely on Christ and believing in Him 100% in the tough situations is truly a different story. I will be stepping out of so many comfort zones and I will have to be completely reliant on Christ but I believe He will do as He said in His holy word the Bible. “And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.” Phil. 4:19. “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit–fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.” John 15:16 Now granted, my faith is not strong enough yet to go on this Journey without my back pack full of supplies and a tent to sleep in. But He is teaching me. The biggest lesson I’m learning right now is everything is on His timing not mine. =)
That probably sounds selfish on my part and it feels a little selfish. But quite seriously I can’t do this on my own. As a child I dreamed of changing the world, but as I got older I realized I could barely change myself with my own strength let alone the world. But I learned that Christ could change me. So you see I have to have Christ as the main point in this Journey. Yes my passion is to serve and minister and show love to orphans, prostitutes, elderly, homeless, people trapped in human trafficking and gypsies. But I would never have come to this point without Christ so I know for sure that I can’t do the rest without Him. He is my rock and my strength, my God and my deliver. I still struggle with leaving some of my things because I never really had nice things or my very own place to call home till a few years ago.
Those dreams are hard to leave, mainly because I’ve wanted them for so many years. I struggle with leaving my family and my friends. I always dreamed of having friends and the past 8 years I’ve been able to start working on that. Now I have to leave that. I’ve always wanted to find a good Church family I found that 2 years ago now I have to leave that. I do struggle. But God has shown me even greater dreams than I ever thought possible for me. And when you dream and want to live out your dream you have to sacrifice some things you like and leave people you love for things your passionate about.
I’m passionate for serving Christ whether it is at work or serving people in need. I want to make my Heavenly Father proud of His daughter. I can't change the world but Christ can and He can use me to help change the world if I'm willing to let Him use me. . That is so awesome! So not only is He changing others but He is changing me too. And that is what I look forward to is letting Him change me at the same time using me to change the world. And right now that looks like loving on people who are struggling just to survive. I can’t do that on my own, but I can with Christ. He’s the only one who can heal the broken hearted,
raise the dead to life, truly love someone unselfishly, heal broken lives, give voices to the oppressed and CHANGE THE WORLD. I’m just super blessed, amazed, and humbled that He chose me to work through to do this task. And I’m super blessed that He has chosen all of y’all who are going with me on this Journey. That includes all of the people who are praying for us who have financially sacrificed and given to this cause and those who are just there trying to encourage us. It all counts and we are all doing this together for Christ and for a better world. God bless each and every one of you.
