Some of you are probably wondering what exactly I mean by an Abraham moment. So I will try my best to explain. =)
God has been teaching me tons it seems these past few years but the more I learn it seems the more I realize I need to learn. One of the lessons He keeps trying to teach me and I won’t get through my head is that things are all about His timing not mine. So with that much said I want to remind you about Abraham’s struggle. Abraham was always known for his faith. I never felt like I could relate to Abraham because in the stories you read as a child all they stress is how strong Abraham’s faith was. But just here recently an awesome friend of mine did a Bible study on faith and it really touched my heart. I realized for the first time yes Abraham was a man of great faith but for the first time I realized Abraham also struggled with one thing I’m struggling with right now, letting go. Just like God promised Abraham that he would be the father of many nations and through his seed the world would be blessed, I feel like God promised me through the spirit that I am to go on The World Race. But just like Abraham took that promise and tried to make it happen through sleeping with Hagar, I also tried to make God’s promise happen too with Jan 1, 2013. Granted I prayed and told God I want to obey Him and to show me which route He would have me on. But the whole time I kept thinking Jan. 1 2013. See my heart wanted to obey and receive direction from God but my mind was still closed and focused on just getting everything done to go in Jan. 1st. But just like Abraham had to wait I think God is trying to teach me to wait on Him. So with much sadness but much joy at the same time I’m leaving route #2 Jan. 1st 2013, and I’m seeking God’s will on the routes in July.
I do still believe 100% in my heart The World Race is where He wants me. But this time I’m hoping to learn to rely more on Him for direction and funds and for all my needs. Because this Journey I’m on is all about Him it’s about learning how to love, serve, and see others through Christ’s eyes and the only way I can do that is to put Him in charge and stop trying to control what He promised me. Because this is Christ’s route not mine. He’s just truly blessed me by choosing to use me in such an amazing way. So I ask all of y’all to please pray for me and lift me up to God because I need to hear from Him in the next week to see which route in July I need to apply for. I don’t want to try to control this or to choose which route I want to do, I want to know which route He’s calling me to. There are 4 routes to choose from and just pray that the one He wants me to go to will just really stand out. When I read them and what all we will be involved in doing on them I want to do them all but I can only do one. So please pray for me and for direction.
I also want to thank those of you who have already given so generously. It has truly blessed my heart and I’m sure if it’s blessed mine than it’s probably definitely blessed my Heavenly Father as well. Thank you all and God bless. =)
P.S. God has already been showing me some ways He was wanting to reward my efforts that I would of completely missed out on if I had gone in Jan. like I was so determined to make work. Thankfully my Heavenly Father showed me my stubbornness and showed me that yes I can do many things on my own but this is one area He wants me to depend on Him on. It’s a hard lesson and I’m still learning it but He’s such a patient and gracious God and Teacher and that is such a blessing to me. =D
P.S.S. I had a hard time doing this for fear of people judging me too but God has also showed me it doesn't matter what others think of this all that matters is what He thinks and I'm holding fast to that and knowing that all that matters is making my Heavenly Father proud of His daughter.
Oh I also forgot to mention you can still donate funds to me and all the funds I have raised will roll over to my July route. Truly blessed about that. Thanks again. =)
