27 May 2015
One of the big things that I am learning to do is decypher the voice of God. He has been faithful to speak. I am learning what He sounds like in the voice of my thoughts. The visions of my dreams. The voices of my squadmates. The songs and words and pictures that He gives.
For example: Last Sunday night, an impassioned Becca led out the kids and Racers in a Pentacost worship set. It was amazing. A highlight of the night was being able to pray for our buddies. Both of my buddies were there, but only one asked to be prayed over. While I was praying, I saw visions. For my buddy, I saw a vision of a map unrolling. I heard the words ” This is your heart and I am unrolling it.” Maggie wasn’t well, so I was also able to pray for both of her buddies. Again, I saw images: A balloon tied to a fence post with wind blowing in the background. “Trust Me.” ; A dancer on a Bible with the words “I have given you a song.” The girls became somewhat skeptical. I became somewhat skeptical. They asked me what the song was. I was starting to have more questions than answers. Another girl came up and asked for prayer. I was doubting myself at this time. So, I place my hand on her shoulder and see lightning.((((press in)))) Then I see a cloud with a streak of lightning.(((press in))) Then I see it as little pictures of clouds and sun and rain and lightning, like a forecast. Then I see the glass of a T.V. and then I am very much doubting if my mind has run away with this image, but I draw it down on the paper with the word “forecast” across the screen of the television. Then I ask God for some words. He gives me a page number (which, is actually normal. I ask Him for a page number when I do “blind devotinoals” so that I cannot force my hand in the verse when I am looking for His wisdom). But I don’t have my Bible. The other Racers don’t have their Bibles and this girl also has no Bible. But! There is a Bible in the back of the chapel. Suspense builds. I flip open to the page and it is in Jeremiah 10. It talks about not looking at the sky for signs. About not trusting in idols and in what they say. God is the one who brings thunder and lightning. Whoa, God, Whoa!
So, I get pretty freaked out. I know it is simple, but I hear from God! God, the One who directs the universe and sets stars in their place; God, the God who creates simply by speaking; the God who made mankind simply by breathing into dust;–He speaks to me! He speaks through me!!!
I had a conversation that night about how God works. And then He showed Himself again! I couldn’t get over it! I slept that night under the stars and was reminded that He, who ordains all that is, placed me so specifically here in these moments. I kept waking up and looking out at the sky with all of its gems of brilliance. He knows me.
“I am the Good Shepherd and my sheep know my voice.”-Jesus
