From the moment that I decided to go on the world race I have felt this stuggle inside that would not leave me. I kept telling myself that it was just satan and would just grit my teeth and push through it. But the honest truth is that I have not recieved confirmation from God about going, I just chose to go. Since Febuaury, I have had several moments when I came close to realizing this but, again, would just push it back. It wasn’t until I was planning out what to say in front of churches to raise support that I realized that something wasnt right. I was planning on talking about what I was going to do in the world race, what it was all about, etc… but to my surprise when I began with:
“…God has called me to go on the world race…”
I stopped…
I couldn’t get myself to write that…
I coundn’t write that because I was still unsure as to whether God really did call me to go. So I told myself to wait until after training camp to write.
“…God has called me to go on the world race…”
I stopped…
I couldn’t get myself to write that…
I coundn’t write that because I was still unsure as to whether God really did call me to go. So I told myself to wait until after training camp to write.
Training Camp:
To skip all the details (and theres alot) it was at training camp that I realized that I was not supposed to go onto the world race. No, I did not have a horrible experience at training camp, and nothing bad happened to me. In fact, training camp was absolutely incredible! It may have been the most amazing time of witnessing deliverence and freedom that I have ever had, the messages were powerful as well as the times of worship, and after speaking with some of the staff I now have a greater amount of confidence in the leadership that is there! I am thankful to God for such a time, but it was about the third day (after much struggling) that God spoke and I realized that God did not call me to go on the world race. He has called me to go and do something else…
Me wanting to do something like the world race was a big idea and, in a way, a good idea… but it was not God’s idea. I am ashamed that I did not listen in my spirit sooner, but God has been very loving and graceful and His peace has returned…
So to the world racers, I love you all and really enjoyed the time with you… Run after Him during this trip, seek after His face and He will use you in amazing ways…
Thank you to everyone who has encouraged me through all of this and supported me! If anyone has any questions please dont hesitate to contact me under the “contacts” tab! I go to follow His voice now! May God bless all of you! 😀
