as each day passes i realize that training camp is getting closer and closer as well as the offical launch for the race and i could not be more excited about it. there is so much to do before both of these dates and i am wondering if i will ever find time to do everything and have enough money in my support account to be able to go. i find myself having some difficulty trusting that God will provide everything that i need for this trip and i feel like my lack of trust is hindering me from being able to listen to God. i feel myself in constant worry about everything but mostly the raising of support…i am just so discouraged but i am trying to remain faithful.
when i was doing my devotions i read something that truly helped me and i am trying to keep my mind on what i’ve read. it said:
Why do you worry? What possible use does your worry serve? You are aboard such a large ship that you would be unable to steer even if your Captian placed you at the helm. You would not even be able to adjust the sails, yet you worry as if you were the captian or the helmsman of the vessal! Be quiet, dear soul–God is the Master!
Do you think that all of the commotion and the uproar of this life is evidence that God has left His throne? He has not! His might steeds rush furiously ahead, and His chariots are the storms themselves. But the horses have bridles, and it is God who holds the reigns, guiding the chariots He wills!
Our God Jehovah is still the Master! Believe this and you will have peace. “Do not be afraid” (Matthew 14:27).
reading this and re-reading this helps me to remember that God is in control and i should trust that He will do and provide what is best for me. trust is a hard thing for me…but trusting God should be easy.
