These past two weeks have been full of anxiety, nervousness, doubt and wanting to call it the quits! How in the world do I get through this? How in the world is this money going to show up? I have no clue BUT GOD DOES!!!
I have exactly 15 days as of right now to come up with a bit over $4000 to make it to my first due date of $5000 for September 23rd!!! Ummm yea… that is plain scary to think about and even crazier to think that people will even pay attention to my fundraising with everything going on with earthquakes, fires and hurricanes.
Backtrack to last week, I was a total mess. I was anxious all the time and I kept asking myself if I really wanted to do this and if God truly called me to go out into the nations. My faith was slowly going away to the point in which it felt gone. I was beginning to get mad at myself as to why I would put myself into this and was getting super irritated with why there was no money coming in. Come Wednesday as I was driving from work to The Real Movement (a group of students who gather to be real with one another and to show the love that God gave us to others) I just let it out! I cried my eyes out and screamed because I knew of nothing else. I asked the Holy Spirit to guide me and help me in what He was calling me to do. While there I was trying my hardest to keep the tears from rolling down. It felt great to be my friends again and felt to be in an environment where I could relax and forget about everything. While there I met a new friend who had just come back from Gap year!! We got to talk for a little and she encouraged to stay faithful to what God had called me to do. Kaitlyn, thank you for this and thank you for encouraging me with words that GOD WILL PROVIDE!!!
It felt great but again I faltered and questioned God and His power. I knew the money could show up if He wanted it to but if I did not believe and I kept questioning Him, how in the world would it!!!
While at the TRM meeting they announced that they needed stake holders who would commit to being a part of the team. After more than two years of going I knew this was my time to put my stake in the ground and so this week was my first week of being a part of the team! I got placed as part of the prayer team and immediately this past Thursday at the meeting I could feel His presence being poured over me.
(photocreds: @j_garv)
I could feel His presence over me as I was flooded with many emotions! It felt amazing and felt perfectly timed for that group of friends to come over and pray over me! I felt blessed and felt safe to cry because all of our hearts were beating for the same God who had power to give me the money I desperately need!
I left that night feeling great but then again I was doubting that God would show up. At this point I was tired and felt overwhelmed. “Where is your faith, David?!” My friend, Lisbeth told me!!! It hurt and it hurt bad!! I walked out of the room and got down on my knees. I asked the Holy Spirit to guide my prayer because I had no more words. I laid there and cried not caring that I was out in the open at SCAD. I asked to please to show up! After minutes of worship and prayer I opened up the Word and started reading the book of Romans.
Everything I was reading was making sense and again God knew I would need to be reading this at that given moment. Romans is a letter written to the church of Rome by Paul. The first few chapters Paul explains to the church of various things that include sin, righteousness and faith! He uses Abraham as an example. Abraham, whom God promised many nations, was promised by God that his wife Sarah would conceive. Well Abraham was old very old and Sarah’s womb was basically dead. Although all this was a mountain, Abraham believed and had faith that what God said would come into completion. You see God is greater than Abraham being old! He is greater than Sarah’s womb being dead! He is greater than all of that and far greater than me having to raise $4000 in 15 days! Even more HE IS GREATER THAN I HAVING TO RAISE $17,400! I just have to have faith in that and believe that HE IS GOING TO SHOW UP!
“Therefore, the promise comes by faith,
so that it may be by grace and may be guaranteed
to all Abraham’s offspring- not only to those
who are of the law but also to those who
have the faith of Abraham.”
-Romans 4:16
( my bible journaling!!! )
Sure was a slap in the face! God was speaking directly to his son who had no idea where the money was coming from but who once again had faith in him! Yes I have no clue where the money is or who will be donating but I do know that the one from above has all of the money in the world. He has more than I need and more than i could ever imagine. It is in His perfect timing when He will provide it. If it is not for this route than so be it! If it is, I can not wait for His promise to be fulfilled! I have full faith that what He is doing is what is best for me!
Although the wind is raging against me, I will not give up! I will not give up on a promise that God spoke into existence. He is Lord and I am not afraid of what comes my way. He is far greater than all of this and far greater than any anxiety or doubt!
“And at His name the mountains bow
Lift every voice declare it now
Jesus Christ is Lord
And with a shout the walls come down
Lift every voice declare it now
Jesus Christ is Lord
And at His name the mountains bow
Lift every voice declare it now
Jesus Christ is Lord
And with a shout the walls come down
Lift every voice declare it now
Jesus Christ is Lord
He’ll see me through like before
He is Lord, He is Lord…”
-Elevation Worship
With all this said, I ask that you pray for my team and for myself! If you can give monetarily or would like to give monthly thank you from the bottom of my heart! Thank you for everyone who has donated thus far and who has bought a shirt or has been a part of other fundraisers. Please pray that God would show up in a miraculous way and pray most importantly that my faith stays strong through this very hard calling he has given me through this season of my life!
I love you all and like always…
-hasta mañana iguana!!!
-David!
P.S- Thank you TRM for this great opportunity! I can not wait to see what God continues to do through all of us!!!
