These last few months have been a journey. I Think I’ve told everyone who has asked that I am doing fine and am trying to figure out what the next step is. This is only half true. I am looking for the next step, the thing that pulls at my heart so much I can’t say no, but I am not “fine”. To be quite direct I am under attack.
Lets start from the beginning. I’m stepping off the plan and heading into the airport in New York and I can feel a heavy veil. It covers up the truth and I can feel it in the billboards and on tv. I can see it on peoples faces as they go to work. The veil is this: there is nothing more than what you see and you weren’t meant for anything more than that. I know in my heart that this is a lie but sometimes it’s so convincing. Flash forward a month or two and I am suddenly back in my old life. The only thing that has changed is me. And slowly but surely the enemy has begun to violently push me back into the life I led before. And because of this I’ve let myself grow distant to some of the people who have changed my life for the better.
So consider this an update and a request to back me up in prayer. I want to apologize to my church group for not being more of a part of them, my family for writing them off and my friends for not thinking they’ll understand. Besides the story gets better. God created me a warrior. So don’t think I’ll take this sitting down either. I’m pushing back.
