Resolve to be thyself and know that he who finds himself loses his misery
I was thinking the other day about the different things that I’ve learned on this trip. I think my favourite thing is that I’ve really become ok with who I am. I don’t need to be anyone else. I know that’s the theme of every cheesy movie not the least being “High school musical” :). But it’s really been an amazing revelation.
I like to laugh, I like to laugh a lot. Many times since a lot of people don’t laugh all the time I feel like I should conform and not laugh as much as I want to. But lately I’m just letting loose all the joy inside and laughing at everything. It’s been so fun and freeing.
I also like to pray, I really enjoy praying. I used to want to conform to the way other people pray. But now I’ve been feeling a lot of freedom to be alone and pray or laugh when I’m praying in a group. Or even pray passionately when others are quiet or unengaged.
But even more than the outward thing I am just a lot more contented. I don’t need to strive to be some amazing missionary. I don’t need to pretend to be anyone else or even long to be anyone else. I do long to be like Jesus, but I know that will come as I spend time with Him and enjoy His presence. I can just have fun being me.
